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Death (the tumbling force, public) => Wisdom => Topic started by: Endless~Knot on August 09, 2013, 08:20:38 PM

Title: Already Dead
Post by: Endless~Knot on August 09, 2013, 08:20:38 PM: A warrior considers himself already dead, so there is nothing for him to lose. The worst has already happened to him, therefore he’s clear and calm; judging him by his acts or by his words, one would never suspect that he has witnessed everything.

Tales of Power
Title: Re: Already Dead
Post by: Endless~Knot on August 09, 2013, 08:25:11 PM: Yeah that is me. I am already dead. I have accepted I am a being who is going to die.

I have to admit however, something on the 'inner' says I am going to go on. It has always been with me. Sometimes online I do readings for people who lost a love one. No I dont medium. But what will come up from the reading is they are still around. My mother also gave me a message she was still alive when separated from body so I definitely believe in it.

I think about my encounter recent with the double saying "I believe we can go where we want to go." I hold onto that.

I know this may sound even a bit lazy, but I really don't wish to come back as a human. I feel a bit of an exhausted soul. Like perhaps I have done this many times over and I am just drop dead tired.

I feel there are potentially other worlds which may be more pleasant and less demanding on the soul. This would be nice to be able to reside in one.

One of my favorite movies is What Dreams May Come, and I liked how he was able to work with the 'stuff' of heaven and create his own world.

I am hoping when I cross over, I have the power to do this.

In the meantime I am pretty much dead to the world, knowing I am a being who is going to die, bidding out my time.
Title: Re: Already Dead
Post by: Kal on August 10, 2013, 02:30:45 AM: Thought this may make you smile, lol

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_426RiwST8

Time is on changing....

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Title: Re: Already Dead
Post by: nemo on August 10, 2013, 03:30:00 AM: Here's a song to make you sad again. lol. My wife can't listen to this song since her mother died. She had a stroke while dancing, I/we loved her so much. There was no chance to say goodbye, because of the coma, she lasted a month. She had enough power to come to my wife in a lucid dream, calling up to her from the bottom of the stairs, to come, Angela went down the stairs and they hugged knowingly.

I use that saying sometimes "dead already" from that quote you posted, at times when I feel that soul level tiredness. There is so much more that could be said about this, first though thanks for your honesty.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQ3wpjdYMqk (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fQ3wpjdYMqk)
Title: Re: Already Dead
Post by: Michael on August 10, 2013, 05:09:51 AM: I'm not always a fan of Peter's material, but this song is special. He can really hit it sometimes.
At first I thought - oh those drums ... too much reverb. But then when he switched the perspective in the middle to render daily life, then back to the ethereal, I had to acknowledge he a master musician.

Good story of your wife and mother nemo. We have just been through a huge and long event with my wife's mother's death (in contrast, hers went on for five years), which is one of the reasons we are now embarking of a six month trip through India, if we get to the airport that is.

Peter's song is beautiful, and heart-felt.

Dead already ... alas I've just about given up speaking of it, except that now, as I was so 'aware' today, the world is transparent for me, whereas in my 'previous' life, it was solid and flat.
Title: Re: Already Dead :)
Post by: nemo on August 10, 2013, 08:39:15 AM: My condolences to you, your wife and family, you must have been an interesting son-in-law.

Say a prayer and a hello from me to Kashmir if you get that far. When I see you i see you in India not Australia so now I wont be so discombobulated.

One of my favorite songs, hope you enjoy it.

http://youtu.be/JG0pegmmB5A (http://youtu.be/JG0pegmmB5A)
Title: Re: Already Dead :)
Post by: Michael on August 10, 2013, 06:29:02 PM: Quote from: nemo on August 10, 2013, 08:39:15 AM
you must have been an interesting son-in-law.

Actually, I think the only subconscious 'question' they had/have about me, was the weird way I was willing to respond and help in any situation without any 'human' emotional reactions or resistances. Typically they were used to people requiring a kind of bargaining in the whole process of doing things for each other, and this would often have to be negotiated in emotional ways. But with me, they found someone who offered their time and effort without any reciprocal 'payment' demands or bargaining. I think they found that strange, but eventually came to take it as just me being 'morally' very good in some way. They never realised what the basis was for my approach to action.

Otherwise they knew nothing about my deeper alignments: I gave up proselytising long ago. Julie of course knows much more, but she has come to fit that into her world, although she still says things like, "I know you'd be happy to go and die in the desert, but I want to have normal friends!" Mind you, she's far less normal than she realises, otherwise we wouldn't be together.
Title: Re: Already Dead
Post by: nemo on August 10, 2013, 06:52:46 PM: Switch Julie to Angela and I could have written those words. I chuckled when I read the normal friends part.
Title: Re: Already Dead :)
Post by: Endless~Knot on August 10, 2013, 06:58:56 PM: Quote from: Michael on August 10, 2013, 06:29:02 PM
Actually, I think the only subconscious 'question' they had/have about me, was the weird way I was willing to respond and help in any situation without any 'human' emotional reactions or resistances. Typically they were used to people requiring a kind of bargaining in the whole process of doing things for each other, and this would often have to be negotiated in emotional ways. But with me, they found someone who offered their time and effort without any reciprocal 'payment' demands or bargaining. I think they found that strange, but eventually came to take it as just me being 'morally' very good in some way. They never realised what the basis was for my approach to action.

Otherwise they knew nothing about my deeper alignments: I gave up proselytising long ago. Julie of course knows much more, but she has come to fit that into her world, although she still says things like, "I know you'd be happy to go and die in the desert, but I want to have normal friends!" Mind you, she's far less normal than she realises, other we wouldn't be together.

Yeah she is crazy like you. She likes india. Who wants to go to that hellhole?

Just kidding. I like India. It has a good feel to it. But the poverty is killer which I feel so bad with the overpopulation.

Julie writes really good. I like what she wrote on Maya.

Someone finally impressed you in life! Took awhile didn't it smarty pants?
LOL
Title: Re: Already Dead
Post by: Michael on August 10, 2013, 07:03:50 PM: Took awhile? Who told you that?
Title: Re: Already Dead
Post by: Endless~Knot on August 10, 2013, 07:10:16 PM: Quote from: Michael on August 10, 2013, 07:03:50 PM
Took awhile? Who told you that?

For you to come around to a woman who met you intellectually and spiritually.
Title: Re: Already Dead
Post by: Michael on August 10, 2013, 07:28:39 PM: It's a long story, but you should realise that for anyone in my line of work, there have to be a lot of sacrifices for a partner. People have their own angle on the spiritual dedication, and not everyone goes at it in way we do ourselves. But which ever way, there are still many things that ordinary people take for granted that have to be foregone for those who take their spiritual quest seriously. That can constitute an internal battle, which plays out differently over the years.

Julie always said the only reason she got with me was because she hung around so long, but that fails to appreciate the sensitivities I have to take towards the life of anyone who wishes to travel with me. That is a different kind of love. It also proved to me she had the resilience - I don't always pursue a comfortable road.
Title: Re: Already Dead
Post by: Endless~Knot on August 10, 2013, 07:31:57 PM: Quote from: Nikosv on August 10, 2013, 02:30:45 AM
Thought this may make you smile, lol

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a_426RiwST8

Time is on changing....

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Too cute!!!
Title: Re: Already Dead
Post by: runningstream on August 11, 2013, 06:04:44 AM: comfort is difficult to maintain . Time seems to accumulate things , a weight . I yearned for the road today .
Title: Re: Already Dead
Post by: runningstream on August 11, 2013, 06:13:32 AM: I have never really understood the term , " already dead , or death as advisor "
Really very deeply ,
Except from
Another angle.
Today i was saying life is so short , and there is so much which should not be unfullfilled though . And being close to the death of my mother , made me see this deeply how easily it is taken away .

Being torn apart by the unspeakable had the effect too , destroying some illusion and spitting me out .

It made me see three realities , dense , combined , and inconceivable ,

This was the second time i remembered it happen , and it was after meeting nemo and anton online for a chat :)

And the " combined " as i understood it was the pouring state of illumination having the inconceivable ignite the dense in an awareness " combined "
Title: Re: Already Dead
Post by: runningstream on August 11, 2013, 07:08:33 AM: No wait that does not sound right , i will try again .

Within the dense lay illumination , and from dense " body" , to illuminated " light within body " , to again " inconceivable" shattered to pieces .
And back down again and up it went this way ,

As though revealing a scale .

It is only a way of speaking of something yet a way to try and see .

To remember the light within .
Title: Re: Already Dead
Post by: CherryArc on August 11, 2013, 01:25:26 PM: I have just recently taken on death as an advisor again, he is back, I can feel his chills again.

I would consider myself already dead, what I am still having trouble with is pin pointing my time of death.
Title: Re: Already Dead
Post by: Endless~Knot on August 11, 2013, 06:02:45 PM: Quote from: CherryArc on August 11, 2013, 01:25:26 PM
I have just recently taken on death as an advisor again, he is back, I can feel his chills again.

I would consider myself already dead, what I am still having trouble with is pin pointing my time of death.

Oh you cant pinpoint death. I have read astrology for years and still I cant do it.

I just think its not meant to be known.
Title: Re: Already Dead
Post by: Endless~Knot on August 11, 2013, 06:07:07 PM: Quote from: runningstream on August 11, 2013, 06:13:32 AM
I have never really understood the term , " already dead , or death as advisor "
Really very deeply ,
Except from
Another angle.
Today i was saying life is so short , and there is so much which should not be unfullfilled though . And being close to the death of my mother , made me see this deeply how easily it is taken away .

Being torn apart by the unspeakable had the effect too , destroying some illusion and spitting me out .

It made me see three realities , dense , combined , and inconceivable ,

This was the second time i remembered it happen , and it was after meeting nemo and anton online for a chat :)

And the " combined " as i understood it was the pouring state of illumination having the inconceivable ignite the dense in an awareness " combined "

RS I can completely relate. My father died when I was 13, but when my mother died when I was 24 it was completely different. It was not that I loved one parent more. It was that when she died, a chapter closed in my life of having parents, and I had to grow up whether I liked it or not, and be completely responsible for myself. So it was a complete death to my youth. I had also had some signs and dreams she was still 'alive' in some sense, which also gave me hope, but definitely it all shifted my AP dramatically. I began a completely new path when this happened. And also when she died, the child part of me died as well, for the most part. So it was a lot of angst when this happened.