Topic: Already Dead

[runningstream]

No wait that does not sound right , i will try again .

Within the dense lay illumination , and from dense " body" , to illuminated " light within body " , to again " inconceivable" shattered to pieces .
 And back down again and up it went this way ,

As though revealing a scale .

It is only a way of speaking of something yet a way to try and see .

To remember the light within .

[CherryArc]

I have just recently taken on death as an advisor again, he is back, I can feel his chills again.

I would consider myself already dead, what I am still having trouble with is pin pointing my time of death.

[Endless~Knot]

I have just recently taken on death as an advisor again, he is back, I can feel his chills again.

I would consider myself already dead, what I am still having trouble with is pin pointing my time of death.

Oh you cant pinpoint death. I have read astrology for years and still I cant do it.

I just think its not meant to be known.

[Endless~Knot]

I have never really understood the term , " already dead , or death as advisor "
Really very deeply ,
Except from
Another angle.
Today i was saying life is so short , and there is so much which should not be unfullfilled though . And being  close to the death of my mother , made me see this deeply how easily it is taken away .

Being torn apart by the unspeakable had the effect too , destroying some illusion and spitting me out .

It made me see three realities , dense , combined , and inconceivable ,

This was the second time i remembered it happen , and it was after meeting nemo and anton online for a chat

And the " combined " as i understood it was the pouring state of illumination having the inconceivable ignite the dense in an awareness " combined "

RS I can completely relate. My father died when I was 13, but when my mother died when I was 24 it was completely different. It was not that I loved one parent more. It was that when she died, a chapter closed in my life of having parents, and I had to grow up whether I liked it or not, and be completely responsible for myself. So it was a complete death to my youth. I had also had some signs and dreams she was still 'alive' in some sense, which also gave me hope, but definitely it all shifted my AP dramatically. I began a completely new path when this happened. And also when she died, the child part of me died as well, for the most part. So it was a lot of angst when this happened.