A bitter pill swallowed
Leaves a lump in throat
As if
Choking on words
That spew out yet remain un heard
This verse, all I have for now
All that saves me
At the end of the day
From the indignation
The fury
At the lies and deceit
And the feigned scent of a man
I was to love
Was I to love him or not?
Who can really be sure
And what matter is there now?
After all
After all of this
What’s left now, except these words
And a sour taste in mouth
Are mere remnants
Really a sorry tale, it’s all been heard before
Yet at the same time
This story is much different than the last
Oh the last one left me sorry,
Disillusioned -- blue
Blood stained and tear streaked
and crumpled on the floor
But now
this fight is over,
White towel thrown upon the dry infertile ground
And it is as I give in that I receive
Yet another tiny victory
A nugget of wisdom I covet above all else
In myself I trust now
and in my own faith
I stand true
Realizations come
At slow and easy pace,
A slim smile
Turns the corners of my lips
And eyes glinting with the knowing
That I have come so far
I have walked a thousand miles
In these old and worn out shoes
And the path behind me
Was long – treacherous, steep
But the path that lies in front of me
Though crooked aye uncertain,
Is the path that I have set
With spirit, soul and heart
I walk this path before me
Transformed by circumstances,
the cold touch of death and
The cruel hand of fate
With a renewed sense of self
This time I am stronger
I am stronger
I walk on
