The Shaman’s Dilemma
The shaman has a foot in another world. You know if this resonates with you. You have premonitions, visions, intuitions, dreams and so forth. Shamans belong to a class of people who live with the knowledge that there is another reality, constantly interweaving with our pragmatic world. In the early part of their lives, they tend to feel separate from everyone else, as if other people know a secret which joins them, but they are excluded. They don’t understand why, but somehow, they sense they don’t belong. This applies within a family, extended family, neighbourhood, tribe, nation. Everyone else ‘gets’ something which hasn’t been revealed to them, they grow up with a powerful sense of exclusion.
Now, that is not sufficient in itself to make one a shaman – quite often it is the trait of pre-shamanic people, who simply are introverted, shy or lacking confidence for many reasons. Shamanic people have an extra quality. They ‘sense’ unseen influences. Often, they will see and hear these influences, but the important thing is that they ‘sense’ this within their being – it is a deep feeling. Not all such people go on to become shamans, because that requires long years of training and experience.
Those who do become shamans have no choice in the matter – as if the decision to follow that path was made before they were born, and the only choice remaining is whether they become a great or poor shaman. Those who accept their fate, begin their training in that other world. They seek out whatever is required to build experience and competence in the unseen universe. Finally, a new decision ferments within them: will they exclusively devote themselves to the path that opens before them, journeying forever away from their human roots into the unknown, or will they divert a part of their energy, their life-span, to the world which nurtured them? Contemplative monks and sorcerers choose the former while shamans choose the latter.
There is no morality to the rejection of the people and world which nurtured you – the decision to fly forever into the unknown is written in our destiny. And so it is for shamans, who spend their lives in service of the tribe or culture from which they emerged. The morality that says, 'everything we know about ourselves, everything we have become, comes from other people, thus we have an obligation to give back with our life’s energy', is only a thought. Paths are written deeper in our spirit than thoughts, and we either accept our destiny, or forever feel disillusioned.
I may argue that the shamanic path is superior in terms of the ultimate goal, but that is an intellectual argument – not without merit, but equally not in the realm where decisions are made. In the end, it makes little difference, because all those who have been born with the call of infinity in their bones, eventually seek the best path toward that promise. And each of those paths have their dilemmas. The shaman’s dilemma is what I am outlining here.
The shaman devotes much of their early life in exploring the unseen world. They seek proficiency in handling all the spirits and doorways implicit in this process. This is a well-trodden path through the portals of death and power – the ancient gates to shamanic proficiency. At some point, acknowledging their proficiency, they experience the realisation that they must return to the world and work off their spiritual debts in service, and the unique support they are able to offer a humanity thrashing around in the endless reflections of themselves. In this they have two tasks.
Firstly, to provide the pathway guidance for those fellow travellers who also seek the truth of their existence. And secondly, to strive within the illusion of reality that enchants those for whom the path of ultimate truth is not an option – this becomes service in the path of relative truth. But before they can do that, they must comprehend what that relative truth is. After devoting all their energies to the path ‘through the bush’, they have then to assess the various paths ‘into the bush’, to divine which are the best in a landscape of entrapment – not all prisons are equal. Only one born with the spirit of absolute freedom in their bones will recognise the prison walls. Others simply see the difference between pain and delight. Some prisons are beneficial to the lives of the prisoners, while others are oppressive. The shaman then enrols in the struggle alongside their fellow men and women, to bring about the most humanely enriching environment possible within the wheel of samsara.
All that is fine, so long as the shaman doesn’t forget their own deepest longing. But here arrives the dilemma: between two unsatisfactory endeavours. Alas, the shaman cannot satisfy either ambition sufficiently. Distracting one’s energies from the path into the unknown, naturally reduces the capacities and facilities of that path, while applying oneself to the service of the struggle of humanity can never be entirely effective for a shaman. Having a foot in both worlds means one is not fully committed nor effective to full capacity in either.
So, what happens? For the shaman, a natural process unfolds. As we become increasingly ensnared in the struggles of the world, we lose the superficial gifts of the unseen. The task of the shaman is to find a way to deepen the ultimate quest down to another layer, through the worldly struggle. That is the only solution to the shaman’s dilemma. How to do that?
Think of it this way. We are born into a material world. As a shaman, we retain the inner link to the world from which we were delivered into through birth: the word of spirit. As we fulfil our destiny in this material world, we shrink the aperture of second vision. But we must not forget there is a profound wisdom buried in the material world – that is why we came this way, to realise that wisdom! We can never lose that inner link to the longing of our spirit, but we can discover incomparable and essential wisdom through accepting the challenge of being born into this world of corporal hard-edgeness. There is a reason we came this road!
The dilemma hangs above the shaman like an albatross, and wherever their path leads, that crucifix dissects. The imperative for the shaman is to sustain as best as possible the energetic flow from both planes. On the material plane, we have to surrender the obsession with achieving successful outcomes, and on the spirit plane we have to divert our energy into ‘how’ we act, rather than into ‘what’ we do. Of course, what we do is critical – we are seeking the benefit of our founding world. But we need to realise the futility, the impossibility of that vision, and sustain our awareness on the quality we bring to the task. It is how we act in the world, not what we achieve, that draws up the water of shakti we so desperately need for our ultimate quest. That is the lesson.
Shakti, or personal power, is the missing element of those who seek the secret promise within all life forms. Too often we hear or see words and ideas of spiritual aspiration, but these are all tilting at windmills, for they lack that critical ingredient to transform vision into reality. Only through walking the dusty roads of hard worldly life, while retaining the vision of spirit, can we store the power to transmute earthly base experience. This is none other than the Promethean audacity of retaining the very essence of life beyond the dissolution of the body. Life has always held out this gift for those who had the daring and determination to take it, and the shaman’s dilemma is the crucible within which that intimacy is consummated.
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