I've been meaning to ask about you feel I am putting on the brakes. I'm quite slow so help me out here, OK? t
We are all slow when it comes to the kriya of existence. All things in due time. The point at which time itself becomes more malleable for us (through our own wish) is a great boon, and an indespensible part of the path with heart.
You may or may not remember a discussion in the CC books where they talk about "compressing time". In that a sorcerer lives and acts that much more by doing so. It is only through this practice that effort beyond the cycle of life and death can be made. It is extracurricular effort.
The brakes I speak of are built into this cycle. It is part of the process. There is a "natural" resistance to making the definitive leap into timelessness... which the body regards as death, and rightly so. Its not something that has to just happen once and then you are done with it, back into the regular daily routine. It needs to be done over and over - so the force of time within your life can loosen from the moorings of its "natural" cycle.
The reason for those quotes is that this path itself is somewhat against nature. It is against the forces which use man as just another cog in a giant cosmic machine. It is of a rarer nature in terms of this particular planet at this particular point in history. There are forces which will support this activity as well, and aid this endeavor - but even these have an economy.
The brakes themselves are legion and masquerade as part of you. However, it is not a neccessary part - and in the case of the path, it is to be dealt with as such. Ideas, feelings, emotions, images, desires, stories, etc. etc. can all serve this same purpose. It is that root purpose that is the issue at hand, not the multitudinous manifestations of its manipulation.
In general, you wont encounter these kinds of brakes until they are being put to use.. as in, before the leap is about to happen. You are on that edge. Recognition of their nature is key.