Topic: Becoming is Only the Beginning

[Jennifer-]

"There is something inside me, Agnus, that makes me not want to stop learning. Somehow, to come to the end of my apprenticeship makes me think of death, makes me feel like there's an end to life's magic in some way. It frightens me."

"That is who so many people enjoy living on the edge. They dwell in the world of becoming, and never completely accomplish, not really. They never truly become. They are afraid to own what they have accomplished, because that would mean that they are fininshed. In actuality, becoming is only the beginning. Perhaps that is what you need to see, my daughter."

Lynn and Agnus Whistling Elk

[erik]

I guess, it was Baba-Josh who said that living fully means quite a bit of what is considered 'boredom'. Sometimes it is just intending and waiting.

[Jennifer-]

I pondered just recently the simplicity of things and how boring it can be.. I think this feathers against the edges of controlled folly. 

[Jennifer-]

"That is why so many people enjoy living on the edge. They dwell in the world of becoming, and never completely accomplish, not really. They never truly become. They are afraid to own what they have accomplished, because that would mean that they are fininshed. In actuality, becoming is only the beginning. Perhaps that is what you need to see, my daughter."

I found this interesting as it strikes all the questions within that are asked.. who am I? Why am I here? When love finds those things.. then we have a choice to live that love..

To become in service of..

[nichi]

(Not the "s" word!!  )

I agree, Jen .. nice passage too.

[Jennifer-]

lol yep..

We instead of 'me'

I recently read a wonderful passage on this.. Ill see if I can find it and share it here.

[erismoksha]

Part of the reason for this as well, is because people can be afraid what they're trying to 'accomplish' is either futile, or wont bring them happiness.

Now, when folks are working 'toward' a goal, say, or attempting to learn something, there is 'hope' their efforts wont be in vain; and when they achieve the 'goal,' whatever that may be, it will bring them some form of happiness, which can be translated in various ways, which depends on what their intent is geared for, wholeness, bliss, peace, answers, et al.

That's why in reality, we cant be seeking to attain such things, that goal, at some end point, making the journey a means-to-an-end. We have to make the journey itself or see it, in particular, as the 'goal.' Then, the whole 'ending' isn't really seen, because in truth, the 'journey' is a continuance, in itself. It doesnt really end. Its a series of stops, of doors, going through doors, upon doors, as they close and open for us.

"There is something inside me, Agnus, that makes me not want to stop learning. Somehow, to come to the end of my apprenticeship makes me think of death, makes me feel like there's an end to life's magic in some way. It frightens me."

"That is who so many people enjoy living on the edge. They dwell in the world of becoming, and never completely accomplish, not really. They never truly become. They are afraid to own what they have accomplished, because that would mean that they are fininshed. In actuality, becoming is only the beginning. Perhaps that is what you need to see, my daughter."

Lynn and Agnus Whistling Elk

[erismoksha]

I pondered just recently the simplicity of things and how boring it can be.. I think this feathers against the edges of controlled folly.

I should probably add on this, there is still purpose in the simple, the ordinary. Its a catch-22 though. Like, when I've found things going on in life being weird, odd, extraordinary (and this happens a lot, when it turns), I still understand, there's a point I have to balance that out, come down, get grounded and back to earth though. This is where simplicity, seeking even, intentionally seeking the ordinary benefits me. Because if I stayed in such a state, or states, then I'd probably go totally mad.

That's why I have that zen side - thats really, to balance out the other side (speaking of sides, hey tommy). Course when was a kid, I could get ungrounded, go off into another 'world' or worlds, really easily, like most little kids can. School say, could get me grounded, would get me grounded. So Id dwelve into that, whatever, homework, books, and I think really formed me as an adult dealing with the spiritual - or even said, like Xfiles, I have both a Moulder and a Skully. One side which is pretty open in belief, can't really let go of certain things, which logic and reason cannot sort out. Ive been able to learn to come to terms with that, though I will get challenged on that one. Then, that other side, I can use to discern, so I dont make the mistake of viewing everything in such a dreamy way. Or else I'd probably take it totally, utterly, literally that all was a dream, and then, not be able to discern true dreams from whatever is real. Cause at times, its really easy for me to slip into that mode, see in the reversal. However, its a requirement of me, to be able to be fluid enough to see, to explore, to get to wherever I need to go. But I gotta be able to come back down, after floating around that high in the clouds.

There's many worlds in the clouds, but there's still this world and this one, is really the most important one, for here, and now, and how I live my life, interact, make my choices, determines everything going on with the more dreamer side of things.

So I can welcome the ordinary, the same. However, if Im in it too long, though I know that being in that mode, if Im there too long, can exasperate me, cause then I may feel somehow 'cut off,' though I know in actuality its not so, Ive learned those moments and challenges will simply surface on their own, so there's no sense in trying to make them show up, or assist, I can only be prepared.