Its interesting to try to come up with different terms than double. Double, however, is the CC term used, so it still has its proper place. And if, per post one, we're going to speak of 1st, 2nd, 3rd attentions, which are also terms by CC (or really don Juan), I think its better to keep the term. Just dont get too hung up on the terms.
I liked how Vicki brought up the dynamics of the mysteries of her double, both male and female, different faces. It should come as no surprise my double, when ive been allowed to see thru "his eyes" when male, has been on a bloody battlefield on horseback, sword and shield, in a line, facing another line on horseback, sword and shield, kinda like that one Mel Gibson movie which escapes me now that he won tthe oscar for. Then 'charge' and slam into each other, stabbings, beheadings, horses fall. A vision of a past where I was no coward, but still, regardless there was probably a lot of karma involved in that.
Another life, in a zen monastery, getting admitted in as a child. I learned how zen monks get so apt at inner silence. As little kids wiggle and giggle after getting the zen masters 'stick' upside the head to shutup mind, over and over, eventually the zen monk kids in training will sit still and shutup mind.
Then a wandering vagabond who survived on reading the stars for others as a gypsy. Getting run out of town for being a dirty rat. Theres some magick involved with this one, that was a feminine one as I recall. But apparently its partly how I learned to do some of the magic and read palms and stars in past.
But still, in odd dreams or visions, or say seeing a movie and feeling some odd 'memory' springing forth, who is to say, these things are mysterious. I know, however, there is a double voice which says 'this is it!' and as I look at the world progressively, like I was meditating today, and the voice I heard from my double when connecting with was 'human beings have committed many atrocities. I never thought Id live to see the day they would commit the worst - destroying what they need the most - their own planet." I suppose I was doing this a bit as I was rereading Seth Speaks. Its true though. We have finally crossed the threshhold of no return on that one. The damage is done. We, at this point, are on the sinking titanic, anyone got the band ready to play music? Oh thats right, I pmed michael my physical address for his music. I will listen to it as I watch mother nature purge us from this planet for committing so many foolish atrocities thus far.
In the meantime while I do the workings to gain what wisdom I can, and have my own mental health issues, work with the family to do, when I do sit and dust my spirit link, and commune with my double, who shows me things through his eyes, then I see things in a different perspective. None of its linear, all of its mysterious, much of it will be about somehow he, will pull me to the place actually 'want' to go, after I shed this old body. Cause he doesnt want to return to this planet anymore than I do. lol. Thats a big part of the deal. It will be sad to not return, its like a home, but a lot of my path is also about going 'home' and that involves another one altogether, perhaps an original one which I bypassed on the road due to paying off some accumulated karmas.
