Topic: Story sake

[runningstream]

and now for that image of a tree

and the leaves swaying in the breeze

superimposed upon the image of an energy body in my mind eye


the roots


the seven churches candles etc etc


wait out the lull


snappy tom


come on



completely un worried and absoluely assured


that would be hard to understand



pit your faith ?


reading from the right books



warriors of the attention which draws upon time


dimensional


alignments



everything is lining up



i will write something sweet



i feel that bass


its a particular resonance and ride




taste of sense perhaps



write write write



doe'snt matter

[runningstream]

love

peace


wanderers

on the road searching for each other


life



so tired yet not worried



the tyres are pumped up



the more darkness you see fighting to switch it


the more the light become visible in contrast



the more light you hold for another on their path


the more it brings


trees that are stationary were not my thing



like those which walked some distance close to the water



this trip


grey skies don't last for ever



did not think the wind would not ignite the spark

once again



remembering simple truth



amongst the onslaughts



feet which feel



some body to walk with

dream with

see with



they hide in side their suits



a cup of coffee i say prepared in the water

a wave within swishing about


set the microwave for 1 minute and forty seconds


press the plunger to swish up the milk !


chocolate syrip swirls on top


of course i have to put the swirl on top

wallah!

[runningstream]

it was unusual

i had sold a trailer to a man

i was worried if it would make it back

he had a permit "paper bullet proof vest"


the sqwarking began

it was a cockatoo unmistakably


my it was loud


next came the caws


the crow "or equivalent here"


two in concert


one goes awwwwwwww

in concert return awwwwwwwwww the other



it kept on and on



what conflict was this which caused such unrest


i shant know

[runningstream]

echo echo echo

is any body there in the darkness ?

i am amazed at peoples answers

again


who should go to heaven ?

" only some people should see heaven"



oh




who can feel their feet



i liked something i read just now



"how can 'she' forget/foresake the children she bore?


or some such


its a good question



i was reading scholars

they did confuse with the depth of inquiry

yet i wonder still



in which direction correct inquiry





i d say watch your feet and feel the sand



i am a hypocrite when my feet begin to not move



i wait and hang onto the door hoping i dont forget what for


as the fog seeps in



slap awake



i feel to say not do



a jolt





i see you

[runningstream]

ok as the crows are in the tree again today

i believe they may have set up a nest within it

like the cockatoo was just letting know

[runningstream]

i am broken up with Sophia again


it is sad


i came home sick from work after i was acting vacant

and making mistakes with things


i blamed the flu


yet my vacancy is more than that


its some kind of torment


its got into my mind the last couple days



i feel the flittering around me which triggers in her presence



and since shes gone the connection is still strong and present


as it always was



the loops got to the point of infuriation



i need to find my own space and voice again now



i will try to stay away so i can not get put in the situation to


fall back into the familiar connection




it seems so easy to forget and re engage



the good i found to over ride the negative



yet found that was not met



its fair to say there are more sides to the story

yet this is one



so much good connection


i am angry and disheartened also i feel the pain


not of loss as much as of not sharing a vision of 'freedom' and growth in a

general sense



also there are hooks that were not here before



i don' t feel in great shape today


i came home sick



the hooks play out within me and im sure some do not belong to me


yet somehow they met her in a play of emotional responses which


are already formulated "within the drama"


although on the surface "to me" unknown



like an old haunting drama play which a cloak is passed across to wear


 

[runningstream]

the words " negative and positive" in the post


could be replaced with

dis empowering or even non conductive


as the de polarization or entrophy


or looping behaviour


and empowering and flowering behaviour



differences are met and a working solution is not always saught

instead a conflict


not seeking a resolve

[Michael]

Sorry to hear you are going through more troubles with your partner.

Time to re-centre yourself, with yourself.

[runningstream]

thank you Michael its been a couple days


i am home sick today with a flu every thing is so amplified


i have no intention of meeting with her like last time because i know what

might happen and well get back in swing together






: I want to share a dream i had now as it was in the "little bit too intense

category"



i was at a camp in some bush land yet it was close to the road and i was

speaking with a dark skinned man who had just built his own next door


i was admiring the size and

how well built it was


that was the last i remembered being at that place with that man


my next memory is seeing an ambulance with a smashed in front

sirens       and police   and serivices    people     at a intersection and

pedestrian crossing

some people look like they have shopping trolleys just people going about

a normal for them day



there is a frantic scene with the services people as i approach the

intersection and crossing i apply the brakes yet pull up a little long onto the

crossing


a fireman speaks to me through the window and awakens  me to the fact

i am in a fire truck


actually and begins to speak of fighting the fire ahead

there is a lot of chaos there



i see smoke streaming into the street and chaos


i explain i don't want to fight a fire because i am asthmatic



he continues to tell me regardless how to go about it and drive towards the

front


as he recollects two street names



he says just put your lights on so i do to be able to head through the barriers



wrong way turns etc etc



i look up there is no time



it is coming towards us from my left and it is huge black streaming plumes of

smoke



yet it is spitting hot oil sprays like a napalm or oil fire etc






in one split second i see that every thing there is about to be destroyed and



that the oblivious fire fighter and people going about their day are going


to be killed including me



in that split second i decide to drive directly towards the fire




i see it is two large buildings about the same size "hmmmm"


the firey spray is coming from atop them as a stream of smoke fire oily spit



in two lines directly




in that moment i know i am doomed if i run so i drive directly towards them


with my sirens on





in the next moment of the dream i am witnessing an image of a man

he is with another man



they are black looking to me like africans do


one image of a man i see his nostrils flared

that image splits or reappears beside the other


now there are two images of that man and they are perfect and not


false looking in any way an exact match of the same man



it seems a strange way to end such a dream



god knows the flu can do wonders to dreaming yet this dream was symbolic



and i have learned to not take details to be useless before



actually its not the symbolism i worry about its the reality of them sometimes

[Nichi]

Certainly sounds like a powerful (and terrifying) dream, whatever the meaning.

[runningstream]

its very unusual

i have only seen black cockatoos here maybe twice

and never sulphur crested ones

a cockatoo has flown over and scwarked loudly

again


and upset the crows nest


which has then upset the dogs


its a good racket going on



seems the crows have set up camp in the tree out the back



and the cockatoo likes to put its two cents worth in about it somehow 

[Nichi]

The black cockatoos always strike me as ancient and charismatic.

[runningstream]

yes they always leave me feeling lucky to see them as its not very common 

in my experience seeing them


it has been dark when they alerted and upset the crows

so i'm not sure which " cocky" is the sentry yet



actually the word "cockatoo" is synonymous for being a sentry "lookout"

so its fitting they have let me know whats going on out the back

[Nichi]

Perhaps it's a joint effort between the crows and cockatoos, if the black cockatoos perform sentry duties too.

[Michael]

Well, I will say, driving your fire truck on towards the centre of the fire, when everyone else was going the other way, shows considerable courage.