Topic: Story sake

[runningstream]

today i went into hospital

i got dizzy and nearly fell over again

they said i was fine and even gave me a ct scan on my head



blood tests and all that stuff



i was not worried at all

i laughed yet i realise also that serious situations come from those

kind of things


something happening with relationships

something old getting old


as usual a mundane monster

hiding in seemingly ordinary little gestures

and passing comments


and inabilities to rise above things


to take action

i find it ugly in the inability to metamorphosise



low light causes different kinds of emotions


and i even think about moving closer to the sun again


age makes getting up cold slower


i am not drawn to the north and across



i feel great loneliness when i approach that



i want to comment on the ability to comprehend many differing angles within


awareness at once




i slept this afternoon for three hours

whatever it is has worn me out


in the full moon i just tossed and turn


like a tribulation


i also imagine to myself that these things are felt everywhere at once

like old selves going for broke

[Nichi]

Feel better soon, Simon!

[runningstream]

Thank you for those kind words Nichi




when my heart became aware of itself

well you know the old story

it did not really

yet it became aware of something else

that was going on

its love alright

is love real ?

maybe its passions reward

i don t know

if i place a foot off the path

and become dumb to senses again

will i have lost all sense of self ?

if i stand in the dark for a while will i have lost composition ?

this "me"

if i meet somebody else who contains what i remember then

how could this be

a little spark that wants to come out of somewhere

[runningstream]

re ; poltergeists 

i used to make the walls creak and stuff when i was angry as a child/youth too




i am beginning to wake up to vision at the moment

as it enters 


for instance i will see a scenario in my mind in a strung together like sequence

of some imaginary scenes with a story plot and possible ending which gives

some

impact upon the situation



within the workings of the day or time

a situation might present itself which aligns in some way with the

representation which is given in the image



the image is rarely exact yet quantifies some summing up or miraging of that

situation in situ



it gives a pause yet sleepiness can overcome me often

and i don't wake up to whats going on


i am sure spirit kicks the door down all day and sometimes i just prefer sleep

[runningstream]

However !



some times playing back is nice


it comes from passion every time and listening

the passion is the want for movement and decisive listening


I am cooking in bamboo steamer tonight after finding one in the second hand

store today


i love steamed vegies and look forward to eating out of some thing which uses

material other than metal


i have an affinity for timber


and not for metal really


in relation to that i tried to weld a trailer today again


feels like something always frustrates me

i do love to make things from timber


on another note

the land cruiser is going by sticking jumper leads on the bar for the glow plugs


and crossing the starter motor with a screw driver as the ignition stopped


this makes the dogs extremely happy

maybe even more so than myself

[runningstream]

you can call that seeing

or you can call that dreaming




dreaming the ability to use the notions of spirit to gather a vision




or seeing the ability to transcend time to gather the self to a spot of incidental

occurance ?




is it again the dreamer dreaming the self ?



or the self dreaming the dreamer ?




any way 



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singing this bowl away into the night i tuck myself in

those words did help last night



self to self


i will have the most wonderful dream tonight and a wonderful rest


self to self do you concur ?


indeedy yes

[runningstream]

  somebody thought i might like this movie and leant it to me to watch on dvd 



http://youtu.be/3veONCcRWbw


today

its called upside down world

[Jahn]

somebody thought i might like this movie and leant it to me to watch on dvd 



http://youtu.be/3veONCcRWbw


today

its called upside down world

Just watching the trailer ... too violent for me.

[runningstream]

i see what you mean


it was the title and concept that got me

i was training and messing around reading and stuff



I played the movie twice actually at least plus snippets of fast forward


what was interesting though is that the concept of two gravities existing


and two orbits



the trick of the honey of the two worlds


which was bees that could sustain the two directions

to make this honey


add to that the timing of the whole thing this week and

i did not really watch it either jahn


yesterday i put one on all day and i think it played five times


it was called tracker


i still missed a heap of the movie and just caught glimpses as i passed

throughout the day

[runningstream]

http://youtu.be/XO1nSVy8q8I     this one had no words


no words

what a great movie and experience

i found myself saying hey !

i know what blah blah blah blah this is and that is

later thinking to myself well are'nt you a know all

but that silence and journey left me with more than than

thanks to the music also

[runningstream]

Medusa

some big birds that i thought were baby emus

and a cat footing around a rock ledge



those blue winged kookaburras shimmering satin

large kangaroos in a paddock


a feeling in my chest

swapping identities

feeling things



others turmoil

tell you about yourself ?

you should know



about me

eyes tied


the double


dreaming

every night


do you know love


i dreamed with her last night

again i said

quickly jump the fence

the dingoes are coming

there were three or four



ones long nose "wild dog" jumps up

insignificant gesture upon reputation reputed


love says i dreamed with you this morning


i says i dreamed with you this morning


at work i was met by the dog with the long nose

jumped up today


two pieces of tin foil glimmering strips

turning about

face dissappears




then what s in the space

between the space

face appears


back to the question


ok

not yet sure of the question


some more time


it requires the tin foil spinning strips

and about the face between the space


third attention


dreaming


a reason to be dreaming


will i find a reason to control dreaming ?



when the tin foil strips about face


and i see my face in the mirror

[runningstream]

i am fascinated be the imagery of medusa

yesterday


that none shall look upon her face who are living or

they may turn to stone



so i proposed a riddle which when taken

would amount to such a thing



using eyes


a path and the use of gravity



of course symbols

and not that i would endeavour to do such a thing


as time would also be the essence




yet id bet that this time

would find an equal


that would be able to find a

way


to defibralize


that

stone entryway

[Jahn]

[runningstream]

she has popped up a lot in the last couple weeks around the place

[runningstream]

“His ear heard more than what was said to him, and his slow speech had overtones not of thought, but of understanding beyond thought.”
― John Steinbeck, Of Mice and Men