It's Monday.
And I went to work today wishing the weekend had been just a bit longer. I like the job, it's a little demanding is all. When I get home every day, I'm usually kind of pooped out. So on the weekend I rushed around doing all sorts of stuff, had a lot of fun shopping but didn't get much of a break.
So I didn't have the best day today, at least so far, though there's much more of the day yet to come.
I broke a coffee pot. I only got a tiny burn, so I was mostly okay though there was coffee all over and I was feeling out of place and kinda bummed out in general.
One of the senior girls was a little bitchy to me as well and this kind of added to my mood.
So I left on my break, after having just cleaned up a weekends worth of garbage in the drive-thru area and, while I was relieved to be going home for a few, I suddenly felt even worse.
As I got outside some tears began to fall and I quickly rushed out of the parking lot before anyone could see.
I was lamenting my life, pitying myself feeling tired, overworked and underappreciated when suddenly out of nowhere... two ravens appeared. One flew around behind me and cawed a few times. "It's okay' he said "It's okay" And the other stood atop the telephone pole directly above me "We are here, we are here."
I said thank you and quickly did an awareness check "Where am I now?" What am I doing?"
As sad as I was feeling, tired and blue, alone in this big city, big world, with nobody to share it with, so far from family and Friends, I really have to be thankful that I have such a special connection with these Ravens and with other creatures as well.
My life might not be usual, and the path is sometimes hard, but this is a Path I have been on my entire life, since before I knew how to talk. This is the dream I have chosen for myself. I chose it because it is the right one for me.
So I wouldn't change a thing.
If I could, I wouldn't wish for anything else.
