That's precisely why it is so hard to accomplish what nakashi said - 'retain verything' or retain awareness. To do that, one must fundamentally transform one's way of living, one's very beingness.
Maybe for you it means this fundamental change, but as I have said elsewhere, something Anekee impressed upon me when we first started corresponding is that what is spiritual food for one at some certain point in time, may be complete poison for another.
Now, as for retaining 'everything', I either don't know what that means or it makes no sense to me. There is no everything to retain as far as I can see. This body comes and goes, these thoughts come and go - even these memry's too. When you switch it to say "maintaining awareness" or maybe
even to "developing Greater awareness" now! You have garnered my attention!