I dont think Lori will mind if I talk about this, but we did some good work yesterday, and she helped me out realizing 'why' maybe, someone showed up, two nights in a row with Heath Ledger's face.
So im in the room, and this woman is saying something which I dont remember now, and he gives me this big hug, and I felt squeezed. I felt his arms and they were really strong. But he had like, no fat on his arms. I couldnt feel any fat. So he still had some kind of form, he was still alive, but like no fat. Muscle, but no fat. But I wonder if it meant he was stronger, not being weighed down by fat, tho muscle is denser than fat, its healthier.
Then per another dream I had about not being able to read? I found this,
“Read,” said the angel.
Muhammad was stunned. “I cannot read!”
The angel squeezed Muhammad, and then released him. “Read” he commanded.
“I cannot read” Muhammad said, a little louder this time.
The angel squeezed him again, tighter than before. “Read.
“I cannot read?” Muhammad said, even louder. He was now rather afraid of being squeezed again.
“Read” said the angel “in the name of thy Lord who created man from a drop of blood: read in the name of the Almighty God who taught man the use of the pen and taught him what he knew not before...”
I dont know much about the koran, but I do know that Muhammad didnt like being 'squeezed' by Gabriel. The other thing is, per the Heath and apparently, Guardian Angel encounter, being squeezed, I remember feeling his arms, I said no 'fat,' but I think I should've said he seemed like he didnt have any 'skin.' His arms just, didnt feel, like there was skin on them. But his 'muscle' didnt feel like bared muscle tho. But felt incredibly strong.
Of course, angels are known for their awesome strength. So last night, tried to think more and more, putting aside more of the movies Heath did, tho they have relevance, 'what' was this 'angel' trying to get through to me.
The other scary thing is, Muhammad was my age, 39, when he began to go through his own experiences. Weird ones.
wiki:
"When Muhammad was nearly 40, he had been wont to pass long hours in retirement meditating and speculating over all aspects of creation around him.
This meditative temperament helped to widen the mental gap between him and his compatriots. He used to provide himself with simple food and water and then directly head for the hills and ravines in the neighborhood of Makkah. One of these in particular was his favorite resort — a cave named Hira, in the Mount An-Nur. It was only 2 miles from Makkah, a small cave 4 yards long and 1.75 yard wide. He would always go there and invite wayfarers to share his modest provision. He used to devote most of his time, and Ramadan in particular, to worship and meditation on the universe around him. His heart was restless about what he considered to be the moral evils and idolatry that were rampant among his people; he was as yet helpless because no definite course, or specific approach had been available for him to change the practices around him."
I certainly dont think im restless about moral stuff. But I would say am restless about other things - like what the heck spirit has been wanting from me and so forth.
But in narrowing it down, getting 'squeezed' and luckily not as distressing as Muhammad had it, just tried to think of the 'message' of the whole thing. An angel using the face of someone, who died young, time ended, almost before time really. And things ive been seeing as of late. Just showing me, and I suppose revealing more and more that, time must be now. Thats another reason I guess. I dont know if guardian may be the best word.
I guess as well, that Muhammad didnt feel comfort from meeting the angel, but felt fear. I think some of that, was to deal with the fear of all that was surrounding him. But evenso, I think his getting squeezed, was more a 'wake up call' than anything else.
Then the other thing which was odd about my dream, I was asking him what it was like to be dead. But yet, he never said, he
was dead, either.
More are coming... at that one place. Gathering. The whole light and shadow place.
But yeah, I think the main thing, my whole 'message' in it, is realizing time, cant be wasted on anything. I need to change course, cause something in me, whatever im doing, is shortening my chances of 'getting it.' Anyone tells me 'wait,' I cant. Im getting squeezed, so I cant.