End of phase one. I would not be responsible if I did not make a recapitulation at this point.
Simon, you have asked to be deleted from Soma. I've been so busy, I haven't had a moment to consider your request, but now, I think you are correct. This persona phase has exhausted itself, so best it be laid to rest in peace.
You were invited here, because you asked me for assistance re spirit development. I explained to you then, that I did not have the time to engage in one-on-one assistance, but that if you wanted to join Soma, you would find a vast store-house of knowledge that you could mine, as well as practitioners who could help you. I advised you right then, that it would only work if you dropped your obfuscatory communication style. You agreed, so I let you into Soma.
Unfortunately you refused to drop your style of communication, believing it to be some issue of individuality and rejection of the mundane. In fact, it was a rejection of Soma members. At one point I questioned you on this, but you decided you knew as much about the Path as anyone in Soma, thus basically you told us all to stuff off, unless we wanted any help from you.
Simon, we don't need help from you. You are a beginner on this Path, and in no position to advise anyone. Members here bent over backwards to be kind to you, in the hope you would soften your arrogance. But it was not to be - your arrogance deepened the longer no one responded to your endlessly boring and tedious stream-of-consciousness posts. But you failed to realise you were responsible for that, because you refused to talk simply and unpretentiously to people, as a normal human being. You have the classic mental sickness of all spiritual acolytes at one point on the Path (I know, because I have suffered from the same sickness) - you believe yourself to be special. It's no more complicated than that.
It is you who have pushed away any possible relationship with Soma members. You treated Soma as a scribble pad, no more worthy than a rubbish bin to throw into all your endless self-absorbed thought dribbles. Then at last, you revealed your soul when Juhani triggered your buttons. In Lori's thread, you were the only one to drop into abusive language. Even Lori held her dignity under far more pressure than you, and came out of it stronger than before she went in. You on the other hand, threw up your hands and jumped ship. Leaving everyone to wonder what on earth wandered in and out of Soma without realising anything about the power of the subterranean current that sustains this forum.
You are young, and callow on the Path, so we have been patient with you. After you rejected any help from me, I adopted the hope that Soma would act on you subconsciously, seeing that your consciousness was not salvageable. It appears to have worked. There really was no other option than for you to leave under your current mind. That mind will need to die before you can progress, so it is best I delete your account.
You are welcome to return any time, and have another go at this Path. I suspect you will be too arrogant to believe you can profit in any way from Soma, but you fail to realise that your current self-image is fatally damaged. Those on this Path, including Soma members, know only too well the decimation that awaits any aspirant to the Path of Spirit. Once you bid for power, there is no escape - only delay.
When your shoulder-chip is knocked clean off, contact me gain, and I'll welcome you back to Soma.
