A shadowy figure approached me in a dream a couple of days before the ceremony.
The shadowy figure came to collect on debts that I perceive I owe.....
I was in my living room where I was sleeping. This dream encouraged the next. In both all I saw were simple objects, like platonic solids, but the perspective was what held the significance. The figure was not seen in the second dream.
In the two dreams the first perception was coated with superfluous concerns, attachments, and worries. In this dream everything was dark. The other dream was brighter, colors were apparent, and everything was thought of as a tool to aid on the path. --
The day before the ceremony I dreamt of beings on the outside of a circular pool of water. The water was glowing, and flowing down through the center of the pool into another pool of water below. The beings where waiting for me. They also seemed to be using the pool for some sort of gazing. The pool had a very inviting refreshing ambience. Somehow I felt by going to the woods I was going to that pool. The pool also represented this forum. I believe that pool is also a part of me…
There was a dream, after the ceremony, in which several beings, saying something in seeming gibberish, pointed out a part of the park near the woods. There was some big straw totem that they were pointing at, and they seemed to be worshiping at it. The totem was so big it obscured the baseball diamond it was positioned by. I got the idea that maybe they where going to set the straw totem on fire. I wrote down what they had said but I don’t know if it is appropriate for me to share the gibberish yet or at all.
The day of the ceremony I was planning to share my intent with the spirits late in the day, but then I saw a sign. I saw and heard several Eagles flying in the distance outside my house. I went outside to get a closer look, and all flew out of view except one. This one flew in the direction of my house then off in the distance behind it. I left to fallow and when turned the corner I could not see the Eagle so I sat down and waited. The Eagle eventually returned, as I hoped it would if this was indeed a sign, and the Eagle flew in the direction of the woods. Eventually the Eagle flew into the brightness of the sun, I lost track of it when I walked under a tree, but by then I was most of the way to the woods so I went all the way.
There was something I felt during this walk. Something about my surroundings, they seemed alive, in agreement, cheering me; they seemed very jovial; it was like several happy eyes watching….
As for the ceremony, I went to the woods Sunday night. I used my voice as the spirit catcher. My spot was right by one of the biggest trees in the area. I spent about 2 hours, if I remember correctly. What I enjoyed the most was the sounds I heard. The crickets where amazing. And, this one bird…I wish I could figure out what kind of bird it was, but I heard it near my house a couple of nights afterwards. When I recall now the sound gets associated with my present sensations and feelings, there is resonance.
I can’t be sure if I saw any spirits. I feel like I know, “somehow”, what spirits are now.
I saw several combinations of shadow, and light while I was out there, but the “feeling” wasn’t right.
Maybe I just was not connected enough to the part of me that “feels”, this is the truer answer.
Pondering these things I keep coming back to the sounds I heard…so beautiful. On pondering the sounds I saw an image of myself in my minds eye. Crystal clear and transparent; impressions could come through me, central channel clear.….
There had been other dreams of significance, but these are the key dreams, though the other dreams take on new significance as I ponder and review.
The ceremony also brought various other subconscious issues to the surface.
There are more insights to be gleamed but enough for now;
Michael do you have any further advice? Maybe the bit about offering them the final doorway?
