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Tools of the Path => Toltec [Public] => Topic started by: Jennifer- on August 10, 2006, 10:08:28 PM
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How to Recapitulate
by Castaneda
Begin by creating a secure sacred space and time for yourself. Since there are no caves available to most of us, do your best in the environment you have. Perhaps you will find a place in nature, a quiet room, at your altar, or you might build a small plywood box to sit in (see The Teachings of don Carlos, by Victor Sanchez, page 80). Whatever you choose, do it with care and with respect for the power of the process you are entering.
Using one piece of your inventory, focus on a person, incident, or other memory. It might be something that is first on a list, or it might be whatever presents itself to you in the moment. Use your breath to pull it toward you. Inhale, pulling, pulling from the past into the present, and begin to feel the experience in your body. The body sensations from the emotions involved are more important than the thoughts or memories about the incident.
Feel your emotional memories and reactions in your body. Experience the incident fully, but without getting lost in the feelings or victimized by the emotions. Feel and know the truth that you believe about the incident. Then become the eagle and fly high. Look down on that moment in your life, and the people involved. See the long stretch of time before and after the incident.
Perhaps you can see several generations of families, and see their pain, fear, distractions, strategies, and their parasites domesticating the participants. The eagle sees the perfection of it all. The eagle sees where the succession of generations upon generations have created the moment of this event.
Perhaps you are recapitulating a time when your Mother punished you very harshly for something you did not do. Or your mate fell in love with someone else and left you. Or your landlord threw you out of the house you just painted. Your boss gave your promotion to someone else. A friend is late again, meeting you for lunch. Your probation officer refuses to believe your true story about why you did not call him. Your mother disowned you because you got arrested for drunk driving. You feel intense guilt because of an abortion.
In recapitulation, we see a bigger truth: That mom was not punishing you because there was something defective about you, she is not a the victimizer, she is simply being the mom that she was. Your mate left because your mate left. The landlord threw you out because he wanted his friend to live there.
Your boss gave the promotion to someone else because she was actually more qualified than you. Your friend runs late most of the time. Your probation officer is overworked, and did not listen to your story clearly. Your mother was afraid of what how her friends would judge her about your DUI. You did your best when you chose to have an abortion.
Your boss, landlord, and friend are just being themselves. The important part is to have the eagle communicate that reality to the part that feels like a victim -- to help the Victim see that they are really just a player in a huge drama, interconnected through time and space, and in that drama you and others came together being just yourselves, and in the shortest little twinkle of time you then passed each other and went away. There was no real victim and no real perpetrator. There is simply the pattern, the interconnection, the action and reaction, the cause and effect.
In the moment the Victim self shifts to the new assemblage point, you will feel the shift in your body. The victim perspective of powerlessness and hurt disappears, and you are set free from this memory. Use your exhaled breath then, to express your intent to release the person or incident, gently and thoroughly, feeling it float away until it is gone.
We call this freedom "forgiveness." It is not the forgiveness we are used to, the one that says "I forgive you because you victimized me and I am spiritually evolved now and I know I should forgive perpetrators, and I hope you rot in Hell!" It is the forgiveness that comes from knowing that there is no victim or perpetrator.
This is the forgiveness that comes when you know there is nothing to forgive.
This forgiveness is the one that cleans the emotional poison from the wounds of the past. The formula is: truth, forgiveness, love. Truth is the scalpel that opens the wound so it can be cleaned. The first truth is: "There is a wound here. I am responding to this situation and acting the way I am because of my emotional wound and my poison, not because of what anyone else is doing to me." That is the first truth. It is the end of blame and the beginning of responsibility as the Warrior.
The second truth is that there is no victim or perpetrator, only the unfolding of the mysterious universe. From that truth comes the forgiveness that isn't forgiveness but simply the releasing of the "victim" assemblage point, which cleans the emotional poison from the wound.
Love, self love, is the antiseptic and bandage that you put on the wound. Your love for yourself keeps that victim perspective out of that experience while the healing is completed. Ultimately, you have a scar you can be proud of, and when someone touches that place, it no longer hurts.
Your awareness opens the door to the transformation which you manifest through your Inventory and Recapitulation. That is the action of the Warrior. When the emotional wounds are clean, you become more and more in control of your attention. You are no longer a puppet, controlled by what other people do or say. You chose your emotional responses and you become a master of your dream.
The door is opened. The Warrior steps through.
Inventory is the memory of everyone you have interacted with in your life… make a list of everyone you have every met that you can remember, as you start this list names will come back to you. You may want to start by making a list of every place you have lived then remember the people there.
<<<Not sure who this was written by.. not CC as suggested.>>>
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11/02/05
The process of "recapitulation" enables us to identify the origins and causes of our behavior patterns, to start dismantling the beliefs that cause them and, through this, to come to terms with our past. T. Mares
This isnt at all what I learned to be recapitulation as.
In my understanding recapping is a form of regaining personal power from ppl and places you unknowingly at the time left it.
Ive done alot of this through out my life, its almost habitual for me to find where my personal power sits in any situation and not leave things lingering around. Even leaving the grocery store I pull myself completely back from all the contacts I made. Almost like grounding..
As far as making lists and setting my intent to recap Ive not spent any amount of set time to this task.
Whats recapitulation to you?
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Ive since taken recapitulation as a very important task in my life... Ill share more soon....
How silly I was to resist!
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11/02/05
The process of "recapitulation" enables us to :T. Mares
This isnt at all what I learned to be recapitulation as.
In my understanding recapping is a form of regaining personal power from ppl and places you unknowingly at the time left it.
Ive done alot of this through out my life, its almost habitual for me to find where my personal power sits in any situation and not leave things lingering around. Even leaving the grocery store I pull myself completely back from all the contacts I made. Almost like grounding..
As far as making lists and setting my intent to recap Ive not spent any amount of set time to this task.
Whats recapitulation to you?
Really T. Mares definition is a part of recapping. What you describe is also a part. You could even call them the same thing. You take your power back by: identify the origins and causes of our behavior patterns, to start dismantling the beliefs that cause them and, through this, to come to terms with our past.
and by: In my understanding recapping is a form of regaining personal power from ppl and places you unknowingly at the time left it.
I’ve done a lot of this through out my life, its almost habitual for me to find where my personal power sits in any situation and not leave things lingering around. Even leaving the grocery store I pull myself completely back from all the contacts I made. Almost like grounding..
To me it is all a part of the same process. I can imagine and feel it as if I am stretched out across time and space. When I first learned of recapping this is how I realized its importance. My attention had shifted and I could tell that I was not in the moment and that my past was repeating itself over and over. I hypothesized that it was repeating itself as a way of getting me to resolve it, and I intuited that to resolve it I simply had to pay complete and full attention to it. That is the amazing trick! Paying complete and full attention is very difficult. But that is what recapping is about to me, the more of my past I recap the more I can remember myself because as I recap I am re-membering the fragmented pieces of "me" that I left be hind. The more I remember myself the more awake I am and in the Now.
Being in the now further clears the residue of the past from the wheel of our life. As the wheel spins being in the moment is a powerful act of clearing and grounding.
This is why you combine Self-presence-remembering with recapping.
Recapping eventually allows us to maintain a permanent center of gravity i.e. grounding.
I could go on forever...and often I do! ::)
Today I was recapping and I noticed something though. There is a fluidity issue in recapping for me. My recapping does not feel sufficient. It has something to do with my body. I'm going to try physical exercise. It feels like there might be a certain way I could exercise that would work best but I don't know.
I'm also going to try deep meditation in the dark to bring my subconscious forward a bit so I can relive these past moments. It seems like the depth of my mind is where I will find the power to relive the past...
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My recapping does not feel sufficient. It has something to do with my body. I'm going to try physical exercise. It feels like there might be a certain way I could exercise that would work best but I don't know.
Maybe try some magickal passes??
???
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It wasnt until I started the process myself that I understood what Mares meant. Shows much in always learning, never gripping clarity :)
I do alot of recapping while taking baths, when Im done.. it washes away with the water down the drain.
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I still have much work to do in the the area of recapulation, Im finding it difficult to fully retreive myself from my son's father, Im assuming its perhaps partly Dustin's link as well. (he doesnt know his bio father)
Just when I think Im all clear and moving, he will pop up in dream and stir enough emotion to remind me other wise.. back to the tub I go! ack
Its obviously not a pleasant thing.. but most work isnt of this nature.
Just keep pressing on..
:-* Raven
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I'm finding it helpful to use everything to help me remember. Anything can trigger a memory and I'm taking advantage. Sometimes I will gaze at something and it will trigger a memory and I just go with it. I'm learning that the most obscure seemingly unrelated memories will relate to something I'm trying to recap in my structured recap and remembering that will loosen things up a bit.
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that first quote raven, is not so much a part of recapping - i mean the understanding part - although it is good practice. Recapping is about reliving the feelings and emotions we felt at the time. It shouldn't be a mental exercise in understanding, tho that can come later, and can help us gain a better perspective.
the power of this practice is in the feelings and emotions.
this is what frees us, though there is a good argument for adopting the right stance, ie retrieving ourselves from the emotions - a lot of work has been done by psychologists on this aspect of reliving past experiences.
don't ignore the breathing, and there is some confusion about that, as cc gave two opposite techniques, nonetheless it is very important.
of course we gain 'understanding', but the process itself frees us, not our understanding.
yes it is about pulling back our elements, and releasing those of others retained in us, but also don't forget the part of offering a substitute to the eagle.
there are many ways to recap, as any journey back into forgotten memories is recapping. still i hold that the structured and dedicated process is important, no matter what other method we also employ successfully.
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Whats recapitulation to you?
Recap, is a way to examine our past, with our present awareness. To see how we configured, and can reconfigure our programing.
Something I notice is that there is a big difference between psychoanalysis and recap. Psychoanalysis, though it can be helpful, is a process of our right side awareness, and is what shrinks do, "so tell me about when you were young". Recap is a process of our left side awareness, actually living the experience. I experience recap as a dream itself. I relive the dream as an observer, allowing myself to see what is taking place.
I often find while I am recaping, that there are others observing with me, around me.
Also interesting is that we can recap other's dreams.
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Also interesting is that we can recap other's dreams.
Aha!
I always thought so. I sometimes do this, but never have been able to find someone who agrees with me that this is necessary. Or even possible.
Thanks D
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don't ignore the breathing, and there is some confusion about that, as cc gave two opposite techniques, nonetheless it is very important.
of course we gain 'understanding', but the process itself frees us, not our understanding.
yes it is about pulling back our elements, and releasing those of others retained in us, but also don't forget the part of offering a substitute to the eagle.
there are many ways to recap, as any journey back into forgotten memories is recapping. still i hold that the structured and dedicated process is important, no matter what other method we also employ successfully.
Mares leaves out breathing because he says that can be too powerful for the common reader.
In my structured recaps I use a breathing exercise for retrieving and releasing energy cords from different persons. That process became much more clear and evident thanks to the breathing. First a series of concentration on the inhale, took back my cords and then a serie of focus on the exhale to release.
My unstructured recaps was more emotional and used the forgiveness, they have a disease approach.
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Whats recapitulation to you?
A very good question!
On one hand, it is the way to empty rucksack and keep it empty. Hence, it is a daily practice, a must.
On the other hand, it has been a way to get deeper, to see deep connections, to start feeling energy at the layers behind and beyond the daily activities.
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Aha!
I always thought so. I sometimes do this, but never have been able to find someone who agrees with me that this is necessary. Or even possible.
Thanks D
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yup yup!
It was actually suggested to Carlitos, by Florinda, to recap the nagual Elias'(the man who turned down heaven) experiences, and Elias' expereinces with don Juan. This gave Carlitos further insight into the way of his lineage, and don Juan himself, by using another as a point of corroboration, giving additional clarity.
All that is initially needed, though I am not even sure this is needed, is an experience or story to initially focus on, and the intent to do so.
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I like to recap stuff for my kids, but have also done so for my little brother.
And also, most recently, my dad.
Some people have said to me "Don't you have enough of your own stuff to recap? Why would you want to do it for someone else?"
But I figure, if I can, I might as well, right?
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But I figure, if I can, I might as well, right?
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a path with heart!
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a path with heart!
;D
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On one hand, it is the way to empty rucksack and keep it empty. Hence, it is a daily practice, a must.
On the other hand, it has been a way to get deeper, to see deep connections, to start feeling energy at the layers behind and beyond the daily activities.
Thanks, you confirmed somethings for me.
Just now something else too, there is something in me that should know how to retrieve and release properly, I just have to remember it.
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I like to recap stuff for my kids, but have also done so for my little brother.
And also, most recently, my dad.
Some people have said to me "Don't you have enough of your own stuff to recap? Why would you want to do it for someone else?"
But I figure, if I can, I might as well, right?
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Well, you figure we are all connected by these cords. If I recap bob whom I have known forever then I am just making my own work easier because in a sense we are sharing our shit until we are free from these cords. So it seems more efficient to me. Though I am the type to need proof of things :P
I think I would need to notice my own progress in recapping increase as I recap their stuff.
Still it seem best to only focus on self for a bit until somethings free up...advice for myself it is.
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I helped my Dad share his recapitulation with me, even iffen he didn't know what he was doing at the time. For years I would sit down and ask him stuff I mostly knew the answer for and could recite the timeless story he would have for me again and again.. It was so much fun. His stories never changed and I listened to them for all of my life. Even his really neat card tricks. One he never would reveal to me, even to his end. Just weeks before he finally took off to that campground in the sky where Mom sat waiting for him, that rascal wouldn't tell me how he did that trick. "Figure it out for yourself.", I heard him say for decades. Ha.
My boy Bryan and I are doing our fourth Buffalo Ceremony smudge in Southern Minnesota where all Dad's people are buried. For both of us to see gravestones with our last name on them will be a pause we'll never forget. I have seen them before but he has not.
Talk about recapping, huh? Labor weekend. I'll listen for some of you and watch the clouds.
t
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I'll listen for some of you and watch the clouds.
t
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the recapitulation is often misunderstood within toltec circles
and not nearly discussed enough
it is an extremely magical act that is never finished
and can be applied to any point of reference we are given
with power
we forget so many aspects of our attention
so many perceptions and ideas
intents that we made throughout the years
have changed our attention into what it is
even time has sped up to what we were accustomed to as children
i remember walking to a friends house
that was just down the road
and it took seemingly hours to get there
and over an incredible distance
that has seemingly shrunken
and yet it has
the amount of 'minuttes' did not change
it was merely the attention that is the essence of time
this is not the only thing
we have forgotten where we have come from
and why we have chosen to come here
and yet when we were children
we knew
and we knew it was a dream
and we remembered what was before
the recapitulation is not merely remembering
it is actually experiencing the attention of being a child
it is experiencing, not necesarily within the moment of the memory
as if we traveled into our childhood
and relive the same experience
it is applying the attention we experienced in the moment
right now
it is to see our intent, that has changed and shaped us over the years
captivated our intent
and to reclaim it
so we can experience again, with our full attention
to travel down the looong long road with our complete attention
intact
our choice
not only do we reclaim our intent that has been shaped
but we learn that intent is our choice
with our intent reclaimed
and we learn to set our intent
we can now begin to reset it in appropriate ways
within this world is infinite possiblities
with incredible amounts of 'points of reference'
to recaptulate
what i mean is we have books upon books
and many other things as well
with detailed accounts of sorcery
from don Juan matus, Elias, Julian, the Tenant, Star Children, Carlitos
many many many dreams
that all offer us a valuable point of reference
to recapitulate
the moment is now
and so we recap their lives
and we actually live them
within our own moment
we experience their dreams, not as exact relicas, tho we can
but within our own moment, our own space and time
we develop their attentions
we learn their feats
we meet them
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being around children
especially if we are unaccustomed to being around them
helps this a great deal
not to merely understand how they feel
or think we do
but to actually mirror their attention
or their perception
which is a magical process, absolutely
that can be applied to anyone
the other day i had this happen to me with some children
when they were getting in trouble
they began to whisper to each other
and i mirrored the feeling and perception
their attention, yet coupled within my own
the feeling of being 'against the adults'
like the adults were 'one side', in their own group
and the children were apart from them
on the other, opposing side, of 'enemy lines'
it was an awesome feeling to mirror
that aided in my recaptulatation of my childhood
in a way it offered me a catapult
into another world that i created as a child
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tell me friend
have you dove into the Eagle's beak and retained awareness?
have you seen what this reality truely is?
it is controled folly
nothing more
you could say to live is the wound
i made my stand
and i succeeded in it
thank you.
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why so sad Juhani?
why so pessimistic?
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i mean that is a sad folly
yet your view has no bearing on me
no power over me whatsoever
i still smile and enjoy life
it is my choice to do so
and the beings i meet reciprocate
unless of course
i decide to go where they do not
and that to is my controlled folly
and my own reason
you are self-important that you pretend to know
as you try topush perceptions out there
calling everyone hurt and wounded
sad and depressed
and yet that is you Juhani
that is your controlled folly
and yet like you said
your intent is small
and for me my friend you are not even real
and that is my burden to bear
my aloneness to experience
within the many different versions
the twin positions of this one reality
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straight question eh?
well tell me Juhani
how can i explain the Nagual to you?
how?
how can i explain controlled folly to you?
how?
it can only be experienced
and tho i have shown many people
you have never been one of them i am afraid
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Hey guys, what's up?
(((Juhani))))
(((Lori))))
(((Derek)))
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Why should you explain them to me?
listen, don't argue
you asked me for an answer
and the answer was given
yet you do not understand it
because it can only be seen
circle games, seem rather childish to me
and i do not involve myself in pissing contests
the joy tht permeates me
as i sing as loud as i can in the streets
makes the birds sing along with me
and makes the clouds respond
and everything around me
untill the allies sing in my voice
calling out to me
my sadness, my aloneness, is also my joy
it amplifies it
and i love it
because i choose to
i have to
there is no other way
not for me!
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the recapitulation is often misunderstood within toltec circles
and not nearly discussed enough
it is an extremely magical act that is never finished
and can be applied to any point of reference we are given
with power
we forget so many aspects of our attention
so many perceptions and ideas
intents that we made throughout the years
have changed our attention into what it is
even time has sped up to what we were accustomed to as children
i remember walking to a friends house
that was just down the road
and it took seemingly hours to get there
and over an incredible distance
that has seemingly shrunken
and yet it has
the amount of 'minuttes' did not change
it was merely the attention that is the essence of time
this is not the only thing
we have forgotten where we have come from
and why we have chosen to come here
and yet when we were children
we knew
and we knew it was a dream
and we remembered what was before
the recapitulation is not merely remembering
it is actually experiencing the attention of being a child
it is experiencing, not necesarily within the moment of the memory
as if we traveled into our childhood
and relive the same experience
it is applying the attention we experienced in the moment
right now
it is to see our intent, that has changed and shaped us over the years
captivated our intent
and to reclaim it
so we can experience again, with our full attention
to travel down the looong long road with our complete attention
intact
our choice
not only do we reclaim our intent that has been shaped
but we learn that intent is our choice
with our intent reclaimed
and we learn to set our intent
we can now begin to reset it in appropriate ways
within this world is infinite possiblities
with incredible amounts of 'points of reference'
to recaptulate
what i mean is we have books upon books
and many other things as well
with detailed accounts of sorcery
from don Juan matus, Elias, Julian, the Tenant, Star Children, Carlitos
many many many dreams
that all offer us a valuable point of reference
to recapitulate
the moment is now
and so we recap their lives
and we actually live them
within our own moment
we experience their dreams, not as exact relicas, tho we can
but within our own moment, our own space and time
we develop their attentions
we learn their feats
we meet them
:) Nice post, recapulation has been a big part of my selfwork.
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Hey guys, what's up?
(((Juhani))))
(((Lori))))
(((Derek)))
(((V)))
(((E)))
(((D)))
(((L)))
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;D ;D
yay!
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(((V)))
(((E)))
(((D)))
(((L)))
8)
(((J)))
(((V)))
(((E)))
(((D)))
(((L)))
Pass it on!
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(((J)))
(((V)))
(((E)))
(((D)))
(((L)))
Pass it on!
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surely!
(((all)))
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:)
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I post it in this thread as it is about recapitulation.
I was recapitulating today and decided to do something that I have been thinking about for some time.
I looked at the Sun/Eagle :) and said: 'These are my life experiences. I know that I live for you to have them - so take them! Take them all!'
It was an interesting feeling I got - I was simultaneously an individual and a tentacle of something much bigger.
I continued: 'This is my life, take it all, from the very first breaths to this very moment and every moment to come!'
The feeling got much stronger.
I said: 'Help me to walk the path you want me to!'
Then it was almost as if I heard the words, it was knowledge that penetrated my body fully: 'No, it is for you to navigate the time and space and make your decisions! It is for you to live your life so that you remain part of me!'
So it is for me to live for Sun and for myself. :)
To make decisions so that they fit with much-much higher intent.
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Then it was almost as if I heard the words, it was knowledge that penetrated my body fully: 'No, it is for you to navigate the time and space and make your decisions! It is for you to live your life so that you remain part of me!'
So very true.
We are the eyes and the feelings of our Dreamer.