I think Jahn and Juhani are pretty alike in a way. You both never actually speak about your own experience, but something you have read and learned. There is a little difference though. Jahn is a little older and on a more respected situation in the society (for him at least) and thus thinks he is also on a more achieved level spiritually. To me it looks like it is all just a construction in the mind. You are really nothing what you speak of. You are an ordinary person who has aqueried specific lifestile. Juhani at least seems to realise that he is indeed nothing special, just he is kind of trapped in the unconcious mechanisms. He just wants to be rough, maybe it's manly or something for him.
So anyway, could you all just drop this pretence and talk about where you really are? I mean why the hell should we do all this show here, for who? Our personal little egos to feel better? Why, why, why?
Could we have some honesty? For this little time I was in Toltec Forum (or whatever it was called) and read the posts and searched the history, there was honesty between members, you couldn't pretend you are something special and more advanced, if you tried, you were brought down to earth by other members quickly.
Here, all these years there is this feeling of supression. Why? What the flower do you want, acceptanse from the members of this forum? What the hell are you going to do with it?