Ellen's right Ian. there's too much pie-in-the-sky about your thoughts. You are projecting for all the wrong reasons - start with your heart. Look into your life and see what you REALLY desire from this magical moment you have been allowed, your life.
You will be shunted by pragmatism, but in this short space, see through to your heart's choice, instead of the fantasy of your mind. (Tho in the end both have value)
And remember, anything worthwhile requires long work - there are no easy solutions. you will have to set your compass, and work in the mines. But if your heart is with you, you will strike through.