Topic: Story sake

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a giant wok

crabs legs

mangoes

stick like legs with spikes on them poked in a hole


grabbing some stick like prawn things from their holes


great tricks for fishing


arrow shaped stone fences


even leaves that intoxicate


sun going down over a mud flat


annexed


beachy colors



fire

coconut tree



aboriginal spirits

white eyes


standing around me sleeping



and their old site with the shells in the bushes


fire place still in tact



white man

black man


they say today


they wanted to get rid of item whats is name

for racial discrimination


about being able to use that as a tool to bully and run down


it sounds like a dream i cant believe


who the hell is running the place


then i heard a man named Bob Carr


completely


speaking of the short sighted


like a pin prick focusing in


kill a mosquito with a wrecking ball


fix something with overly force whacking something else out


can 't it be a

broad + long + short

view

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Re: the sword

was

black

sounds like about 2 .5 feet long

slightly bowed

w writing embedded

or "in" it not colour

with Gold trim


they were men not women

and they were aliens


or not from this time or "something"

she says

i know what it means "the sword"

but she does't understand it


but "they" told me and i know how to use it "what it does"


the blades are not outside yet on each end

they are


they are "inside " or part of the sword in it somehow

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was two koalas on the road dead today

not together but close enough


don t normally even see them


only once or twice out the road


alive almost ran over last week was one by a truck


in front of me


there was a cow too been hit

heaps of wallabies

roos

pigs

deer


sure there s crosses out there

but way more animals


not to get too hung up


so i was talking about balance


and a wallaby met me in the road


across a plowed paddock


when in a flat and low vegetation


the balance is different


its head swings lower

not having to keep it high

the balance at this counter point is such that


the body and the tail find symmetric

equilibrium


that pendulum actually hops along with equal spread along

its length



i also watched some horses horse play


then i fell asleep


then i woke up

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it is amazing the front paws don't touch the ground yet grace it



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i feel silence

is anticipation

if i tell you i'm holding my breath will it be the same


i have leaked out on the ground

i gave myself away in silence


holding it up with these words


im going to do lots of things today

and tomorrow

and probably the next


from silence comes these words

selection

magic


embedded in a story

i'll cross the gates


i will bare my shoes

and meet the keeper of the gate


with steadfast certainty

and absolute timing


the word because

is it in silence resonating outward from these lips


my hurdles coming on towards


i will make another coffee this morning


i sleep


i wake up


sleep


wake up


what happens in between


i enjoy books



i look for them in a second hand store


they are so cheap


peoples prizes from the past


possessions sometimes inscriptions


thank you's


they are useful

i enjoy useful things



they give inspiration

and then use within the inspiration


inspiration means "to breathe life into "


i'll breathe life into something today


one way or another i'll try and wake up


like the girl at the checkout in the supermarket

who says hi how are you ?


and i stare into her eyes and say i'm fine thanks

and how are you going ?

and she lights up awake


well she probably did not give me the right change by 5 dollars

but i think that might be the universes way of telling me to wake up



indulgence hits from all sides



swimming along on the water

m'i kayaka


sometimes a looking downward things pushes the boat along to another

stream


did you ever stop and say


if i had not taken that wrong turn


things would be different today ?

in a positive light


i mean that it took a turn for the better


paddling along life

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i have the image of

spiritt slapping the buttocks

of a galloping horse

and a rider going hell for leather in the wrong direction

up a difficult grading hill climb

its stubbornness ? or testing

and riding ability

yet theres this other thing where spirit

actually makes it a breeze to ride onwards

thats what the rider will remember

challenge and ease

wind at the back

swift confident movements

close to the sun

every flower meeting the sun

yet knowing when to ride on

[Nichi]

i have the image of

spiritt slapping the buttocks

of a galloping horse

and a rider going hell for leather in the wrong direction

up a difficult grading hill climb

its stubbornness ? or testing

and riding ability

yet theres this other thing where spirit

actually makes it a breeze to ride onwards

thats what the rider will remember

challenge and ease

wind at the back

swift confident movements

close to the sun

every flower meeting the sun

yet knowing when to ride on

 

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a lot of grief in the world today

people checking out

tension is coming in

i have felt so much i cant hardly stand it anymore


i suppose its what it feels like for those who go numb


except i will pick myself up


this exchange of energy i am not sure its all even


after all i cant gain from trying to get

the same as trying to give


open my hand pull it away


i talk in a third person witnessing the world


i take my hand back


i want somebody to lift their own hand


does the sky seem closer


my affinity is for the earth


it has become a distant dream with a lot of chatter


i look at my boat floating forward


happiness is not hiding in these things



remember going into the supermarket with only a couple dollars


feeling rich by the bargain you found


sitting by the fire for a while


set in our ways



ready set




excitement

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i am angry


i am angry for the world being so weak


so id say its the weak face of the world


i am angry i am angry for the world choosing the weak face over the

strong face


what's the strong face then ?


the strong face is the child

and the strong face is the child s freedom

that s in the heart


i can close my eyes and say it does not matter

but when i look again or try its still there


do i have the right to be angry about the child being messed with ?

hearts broken it two


i am so angry i would break everything i could if it made any difference at all


and it is tiring


it depends what channels you watch

a friend says

oh i don t buy into it its not really real "spirit" or something


and why do you care so much


i am sure they had some warriors to do that


like what they said about the toltec statues being guardians



when it might be

standing upright as the pyramid is


this would become an entire or total being


from the ground up


how could the base leave the child s centre to be hurt

in that pyramid



if you hold that child down


you are going to get a tantrum


or a empty shell out of that


and then there s the corruption


you will have a fight on your hands there

if the child chooses that weak face

[Nichi]

Give yourself permission to change the channel!

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i have stayed on the same channel

and it is why i feel this

i am whole

i cannot escape to the sky

not yet

i look for answers in the sky

i ask here and there

i have established the resources and stage

to pretty much walk off

the other stage

just a little longer

its ok i give myself permission Nichi 

i pay with tiredness for the right to fight for the right to give myself

permission

i work hard for that choice

not long now

i will expand into that sky when next i permiss

[Nichi]

i pay with tiredness for the right to fight for the right to give myself

permission

i work hard for that choice

not long now

i will expand into that sky when next i permiss

Expanding into the sky , as in reaching into eternity, or infinity?
Or, what does it mean to you?

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the last time whole was pretty mind blowing Nichi

i am not sure i can explain it or i'm sure i cant

except to say my mind or /being was moving the whole world

and it stayed that way and still does to some degree

more than i like to pay attention to

now

that is what was meant by the light the truth and the way

it is literal

those three are all the same "one"

jesus was not lying about that

it is motion

it is not the stagnant hum drum


when i repeat it in words it sounds not like the experience

yet the experience gave the ability to describe those things somehow

through a recognition

the sky then is this


"when the eye is whole the body is whole"

i am sorry to have to borrow more words


the water shows the light


and the light is "him" to "her"

in my understanding


that s the fruit infinity s glass ceiling

i suppose the sky gives answers because our energy reaches out beyond our

boundaries following that truth and light and way

until it merges with sky


like rain


fills the heart


beauty and yearning


expansion


when i spoke of it i mean

i will be closer to the earth

and i am working hard now so i can have the space and arrangement


to walk away from things to some degree

i believe this will give space to reorganise things



and re approach with the available space a life which can start a different

seed

which more constantly nourishes

[Nichi]

I'm all for the sky!

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i feel its fitting to talk about death


somebody drive under my truck today

i had on an oversize load


they actually ripped the flag on the edge of the wide load


i watched them drifting under the building

at the end of the overtaking lane


i ran out of road and they just stayed there


i was just saying what a flowering idiot


perhaps thats what it is


yet sometimes people are old


sometimes drugs or drink who knows



no death though except im sure their car will have been marked


i did not talk to them


they slowed down no doubt in shock to what happened


how could they not see what was happening i wonder





its raining hard


i bought one of those

copies of an old flask that holds water


like in the westerns



the creek will no doubt fill up


ill be stuck here maybe



ill enjoy the rain


grandfather got tired and dizzy


700 and 800 kilometers a day

at 83



i tell him he can stay as long as he likes if he wanders this way


i feel like giving him something


a car and shelter


and  rest



back to death


i had gun pointed at me once

i told him to just shoot me



another time i punched the guy in the head after he pulled the trigger against

my head

it was only a pellet gun that time


another time a man pointed a gun at me down the paddock

through the cross hairs


i did not see him with my two eyes


but knew what was happening


i darted behind a post but he was not going to shoot he was just looking \


another time i walked in on a man with a knife


that really made me feel a twisting in my stomach


i used to do security


i have seen people stabbed with glass in the side and people with knives


even had a man come for me with a steel bar

more than once


shit ive experienced some crap


i used to have crappy dreams


i can't remember how many times ive been punched or been in fights


i have felt fear


i have used feeling to see what is going to happen even before and

tried to change things


and make better choices



sometimes standing ground in the face of it


i want a good death


one that fills me up and makes me feel like everything was wonderful and

light

in retrospect


by the way


i cannot stand to be around violence too much


but i will do my best to help where i feel i should or must


my biggest fear was being afraid


i have fought in the ring too


the adrenaline almost made me feel to be sick too



my grandfather has been shot twice


my father also and stabbed


i am really a peaceful person who wants to do the right thing


i have almost died drowning


sure ive left my body


ive seen ghosts


still i would like to hear more about the warriors death