Topic: Story sake

[Nichi]

Has the font size gone back to normal for you? Looks normal to me now, but I see that M came and resized the photo.

[Nichi]

Did the Scarlet Honey Eater male find his way back out?

[Jahn]

i have not had any drugs/halucinagenic substances or the like  since i was 21

i am 37 now

That is, if not impressing, kind of "good" - to let drug intake belong to the past.
Some mistake spiritual advancement with extraordinary experiences, whether these experiences comes from meditation or drugs. But in the long run, permanent growth and evolution is always done when being sober.

[Jahn]

yet i felt completely sober because of it


i was faced with the reality as it was really presented to me

stark and raw


it was a big shock


and made me feel exposed and very alone

I am afraid that the feeling of being alone will persist.
That is one reason why we come together at spiritual forums such as Soma. With the one aim of many, to at least get the insight that we are not alone, and that we can build a party - even if it is electronic on the web.

[runningstream]

i am not sure

my last three posts have become large and still are

although the bird has resized more relevant

all the other posts are small still except for my last run

i will see how this one goes

back to normal i see !  great thanks

[runningstream]

yes the bird found his way back out

when next i was back


it was nice to hear familiar tunes coming from others aside from myself

when i arrived here Juan


you can really push the boundaries of knowledge here without those strange

skew ward glances


just the composers differ 

[Nichi]

yes the bird found his way back out

when next i was back


it was nice to hear familiar tunes coming from others aside from myself

when i arrived here Juan


you can really push the boundaries of knowledge here without those strange

skew ward glances


just the composers differ 

Birdsong brings relief
to my longing
I'm just as ecstatic as they are,
but with nothing to say!
Please universal soul, practice
some song or something through me!
 
From Essential Rumi
by Coleman Barks

[runningstream]

Rumi is great




i was asked more questions i don t know the answers to today

after i left somebodies house i knocked on the bathroom door to let

them know i was taking off



i got a phone call asking about something

after he got out of the bathroom

when he left he thought he saw something moving walking around the corner

like three steps moving around


and a presence


he rushed out of the house spooked

and then realised he had forgot something


he was going to go back in to get it but when he opened the door this

heavy stunned feeling persisted inside


the house has always felt fine so it was the first time


i am afraid the more answers i get the more questions i have


it s not for lack of experiences


i am sure for some experience is not to be focussed on too much



my opinion is always ask a lot of opinions and choose what feels and seems

sound


i am wondering if i had something to do with it


i tell the mouse to be quiet yet the mouse follows me around


making me ask questions


or not mouse but experiences

[Jahn]

i am afraid the more answers i get the more questions i have

it s not for lack of experiences

That "the more we know - the more we do not know" is a kind of universal law.
Stated some times as; the greater the visible side of the coin (knowledge) the greater is the unvisible side.

[runningstream]

yes it seems that way Jahn

like two pyramids whose peaks reach each other

cities in the clouds

different clouds

today was a good day

the sun was out

i felt i would be sailing on with it all

i get excited

my spirit likes it when i tell it i will do what my heart desires

like a gypsy

i read others stories on the web

people looking for jobs

the world is all different

politicians selling fear



i want to walk off

like a book i heard of

chasing the sun



my friend tells me she feels the lethargy

i feel it too this afternoon

and fall asleep for a time

the washing machine is beeping

i moan as i awake not wanting to get back up



it was a short sleep



looking at the things i have began

ambitions and projects


torn


wanting to share it

wanting to be human


not normal but some other version

or complete happiness



i was a child once and i used to have dreams

i chased the sun and dreams



today the dreams are chasing me

old ones

i see them appear as though complete realities inside me


i watch them play out

feeling something like remorse

or regret



with newer eyes the foolish things seem crazy like another life



i can watch them in the water

i wonder where they are that they rise up of them selves

inside my memories



like tides that rise and wane

the stars coming and going


keys in locks


that image concerns me


because i cannot fathom such simplicity in that complexity


could it be so easy



time


money cant buy time


money is not happiness and happiness not money


search for happiness equalling freedom


the body the witness breathing life


some life


into the world and vice versa

breathe



fathoms


depths of oceans rising


suns setting


on a dream


wanting to dream with others


wanting to walk off out west with no shoes on


no alarms


like another time


with ancestors of these dreams


these aches

[runningstream]

http://youtu.be/vsaoPAlnWq8

[Jahn]

money cant buy time
money is not happiness and happiness not money

Money pays my bills, I have plenty of bills so therefore (after years in poverty) I have plenty of money.

And I buy others time, because my own time and ability is limited. But the usual lack when having your own house is - time and money.

search for happiness equalling freedom

How do you know?
Thre might be some kind of freedom to search for, but" that freedom" is not equal to happiness.

[runningstream]

yes it seems like that was a sound formula produced by those who created

money pyramids times ago


maybe secret societies holding the mechanical keys

built on others time


spirituality of the new age western variety giving hope

of gain of riches which belong to the bodies time


lines crossing in fields give riches to other things


flying on those lines


maybe i will find a reason to dream again one day


freedom has never been fixed in any one place


like the flux they spoke of



freedom for me is held in the earth


yet its gliding upon it



its the only lasting freedom i know



that and its mirror which appears in dreams


then there is heaven



thats when the dream sky meets the earth sky

[Jahn]

Freedom - I do not know much about
But I do know Plan A - and how to get the next project done.

Whether it be to fly to the Sun
or to fix an old engine, or even to fix a flat tire.

[runningstream]

   plan A in progress

today i learned to spray paint

i bought a spray gun at a garage sale on the weekend

there is a car next

today was a caravan