Topic: Story sake

[Nichi]

I know what you mean about the feeling changing, runningstream. There are surely scientific explanations for it, like a drop in the barometric pressure, but mostly, as you walk out into it, it's like 'Whoa, what spirit is this?"

Stay out of the lightning if you can!

[runningstream]

like magnets in each others reach

sensing

then a reaching out and electrical transmission explosion

conductive

and then

success

like a fuse which can no longer regulate the charge

sensing whats on the horizon reaching down

nature speaks

and man quivering listens with simple comparison

to whats known

so man builds raincoat

like the rainbow

or the rain itself

or a lightning rod

or a sandbag

or a canoe

or walks

in puddles

the barometric pressure i feel in my bones

in my muscles

on my skin

in the hair follicles on the skin

the lightening was not normal lightening

reminds me of the beginning of the movie flash gordon

where they flew into a new planet

and it was every where

are we going to hear a rumble tonight

a storm tonight

its relentlessness washes the soil from the earth

and runs into the sea

a new island in the pacific

oh yes

choice is reserved for other things

decisions

adaption

so small

so little on the wave

[runningstream]

Don't take it the wrong way

once 2 young guys asked me about boxing

i drove them to the boxing gym and went myself

the guy i took who asked had never boxed before

so they were interested to try



one day i was working a long time after that in a bar doing security down the coast

in another town



the guy came up to me and says remember me

i did not at first


he says i took them to boxing once and it was the first time



he says now he is the australian champion and has now turned pro



i get a real buzz out of that



there has been other times

somebody has caught a waft of some of their freedom


and then ran away from something to pursue it


then they have fallen flat on their faces and looked back upon what they have left behind regretfully



i would imagine those stories could lead to the opposite

even their death



i suppose its a spirit thing


an inner spirit thing


an alignment



with the outer world as well



timing is somehow crucial


ive also noticed there is no such that i can see which is losing the "right" path

as the heart path always seems to be waiting again



that means you can be champion of the world or whatever


a you take the high road and ill take the low road kind of thing



i saw a woman who did not make it once


her spirit seemed withdrawn


she did not speak strongly i had a hard time focusing


i saw people spin another direction


like inner direction was affected


like the loss of some identity or past haunted them


and they never found that the loss was their strength



like eckart tolle having broken his continuom

and finding awareness



that breaking down that revealed something else


its like something still hangs on


then it starts again



the heart keeps looking for what makes it feel at peace


awareness witnessing the show

[Michael]

You asked about the Bird:

The sapient with their spirit and their mind behold the Bird
adorned with all an Asura’s magic might.
Sages observe him in the ocean’s inmost depth:
The wise disposers seek the station of his rays.

[Rgveda]

        Come, fill the Cup, and in the Fire of Spring
        The Winter Garment of Repentance fling:
        The Bird of Time has but a little way
        To fly -- and Lo! the Bird is on the Wing.

[Rubaiyat]

I recommend you take a little time off and read this thread:
http://restlesssoma.com.au/soma/index.php?topic=8374.msg58407#msg58407

[runningstream]

OK

and then if you would like to discuss any details of your thread or findings

i will help you with them 

[runningstream]

feel free to ask me as many questions as deep as you would like

i am here sharing with the eagles command

my abstract answers might not satisfy the masses

but those who seek to pass through that beak certainly left behind

should certainly have heard what is behind and in front of them

[runningstream]

for now i have a lot of semi stationary time of my bodies movement

i have reached upward on cross fit bars

the kind that climb into the sky progressively higher with each reach and leap

i have landed awkwardly and very hard


my knee was the issue

the concave in place of the patella gave away what had occurred when i located it up and around the corner


they tell me you can make the mind re allocate pain in different ways


i am aware of a few avenues like anger


sometimes it just cuts you down to size


that particular week the lesson seems to be humility as always


those who do not lear too high


shall not have as far to fall


the hight borrowed of course


on lend



so humility is the natural occurrence of alignment as alignment is receiving

whats let go yet which returns


another lesson heard was what is the newer alignment?


after the old paradigm of chasing time backwards


outside the turbulent being



awareness of heart providing that impetus to move

truth was the scale of the heart



and climbing the scale now with the newer alignment means

the heart must create


the problem being witness the furrow receeding

as though set in motion a pantomime which caught and kept the eye

looking



it must proceed onward of this boundary


across the chasms flow into the other sides motion


which holds steadfast with certainty and assurance


the heart truth













 

[runningstream]

the hospital is a strange and captivating place

9 days i was there

certainly vortexing motions set in place


my lovely hands me amethyst on the necklace upon a feeling


i commend her for her awareness and trust in it


so as it hangs


i enter the purply amethysty looking ward


upon arrival finding a being


perhaps it was the morpheine based mind lubricant


but it was clear as day


from the moment i arrived i felt the sway


we had reached a more ethereal moment



those beings of light


my new carer i ask about her spirit friends


she replies yes she has a lot around her


she is 70 years old


hard but competent

old but her spark is strong



i place faith in her after th previous days of being tortured by fore mentioned vortexes in place

within the walls and beings actions there



she keeps me safe for some days


i saw a flower in our first moments together


it was spinning in the air amoungst the fine other dusts



it seemed clear  and spun it was quite small


reminded me of the inside of say a mangosteen fruit


like the image in avatar of when the deity pointed something our



she kept me safe for some good few days eventually hurting me and coming aground herself in her own way

[runningstream]

another large part of this was something a drug called ketomine


they used this hideous drug to relocate my knee cap and

after my telling them they gave me only a half dose for my sensitive system


it was quite bizarre


first a completely alien feeling


absolute slowing down and a down scale in dimension


to a simple yet

anologue like respresentation



simple blocks of brown reddish light congealing together like mince meat in waves



then came the vomiting from deep in my reaches



violently


i spoke to them saying i am halucinating


and that i cannot see them but i am aware



and that i am still conscious as though i normally would be



i have about three days of memories which don't fit together there


i cant remember at which times and places certain events


2 days later they operated and put every thing back together



the 2 events i cant seem to place which one happened where


i asked to not be operated on by putting the needle in my spine to put legs to sleep


so they did a block


all i can say is when i woke up i just started reaching and moaning at my leg in pain immediately


as though i had received no pain medicine at all



it goes like this


i could offer somebody advice on it now i feel



like the soft edges of a home compared to the hard of the hospital



and the forgiving nature of millimeters and compression upon injuries in joints



about recovering with or against pains suggestions



about nurturing and pushing with hardness or softness



about working with or against an injury



about what works for that one



because i found my one was not the same as other  ones


it was just my one



the line between agony and nurture


softness and hardness



those dimensions



working back up that scale



gravity and measurement


pleasure and what is bearable


what nurtures grows even protects


what pushes harshly and does not bend uncompromisingly

[Nichi]

What a terrible ordeal, runningstream. Knee surgery can be a long heal. Hoping you have some assistance in your home and that your mend will be smooth!

[Michael]

Ketomine rings a bell - it was the topic of an episode of House (http://house.wikia.com/wiki/No_Reason) which was one of the weirdest episodes I have ever seen of any series.

[runningstream]

Thanks Nichi



yes i am lucky to have some soft edges here to buffer the recovery




Michael i read that

i can totally understand how a new image appeared in place of reality even with eyes open

i would say it could be very dangerous


before they gave it to me they asked me

"are you aggressive"  and  " do you have any history of mental illness "



when i told them no and that i can become aggressive but i am quite aware and that should hold it together

controlled



they went and got a few men/people organised to hold me down in that case



i was first confused why they would ask those


but not after i went down the k hole



it was really like that scene in the movie the matrix


except for the end result of the reality disappearing was waving mince meat like image for me

which was in no way nice


it was disgusting and alien

mid bending in a way that was just bizarre to the extreme

[Nichi]

Marcia coming near you? (Don't know where you are in Queensland.)

[runningstream]

there are two formed cyclones hovering around in the north of the country

added to that is there are really high tides for a couple days

which makes the water unable tp get away so quickly

[Nichi]

I don't know where you are in relation to this map, but - thinking of you.