Topic: Story sake

[runningstream]

so ill put food in this stomach

ominous silent persuasion in the wind


i put the roof up

only some body came and took the roof down


is it too much to want for a roof i thought


perhaps i will do away with the roof


and what will i do ?


perhaps i will work


i am not now working for money


perhaps i will work for no money


like the man who took down my roof


i liked him yet i was harsh


i thought him hard


yet i found him soft


i will not be unwell then


go within for a year to somebody once they said



i look at a lake


perhaps go within for a week



if i have no money and a patched roof


perhaps i will have a lake instead



or a bush track


roads in roads out


dependence i despise


yet there we reside



a simple dream i am still looking for


i know its in the simple things that we miss


sometimes just tired

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even that relates to the bear

the temperature drops

and bear goes within

i must put on a warm top warm bottom and socks


walk on the stones that way

warm like the bear

sleeping like the bear


listening like the bear

from a place that the moment brings to the now bear


bear i wont say it a loud

eardrums pop with intense silence entering


ringing


the song goes for a moment


flowers flowers


feel it in the air


the silence wants to pop


is the bear the only one listening


will bear sleep or wake

hungry from the cold


no body can be told


does not anybody else hear the songs


if power was as story to those who don't know

was the songs a story to those who don't know


that the songs take it to another place


unlocking collective songs


trying to grind flower into powder


return to the soil before its time


i do not find

it to smell the same


in gods name

[runningstream]

sometimes when its time to go

its not time to go

surrender

remember


she tells me things


i read page 444


she is a healer and wise


friends old and wise are rare


even the wise are foolish 


all of us foolish


so the water pump went another story


sometimes its not time to go


spirit is a demanding boss


patience and a better way it knows


unlike gravity


its just an illusion to work with


when the illusion becomes beyond a seers wildest ideas


you might be on your own then


in the wind


so you might just sing too


wake up and stare at the stars


and dream of a tent on a ledge somewhere


overlooking stars

[runningstream]

follow up words for the man who felled the roof

his heart likes to help others

and he enjoys himself with a drink which makes him talk


after the waterpump went

he really became the hero of the story


after loosing an important bolt and being so far from civilisation


he aquired and supplied a new one


had me on the road at the absolutely correct time


and not before as i had suggested


dreams a lot since


alignments


a foot in the wrong place even be it on the way to the right place


finds lacking in harmony and purpose


harmony and purpose aquired


finds a lot of dreaming again


simple things


like the sky lines up as it should


old selves drift into the dream

and aquire the alignments necessary


salvation's from other regions

that don't contain the richness of dream


comfort and right position


indulgences i think not


making the most of what you have


like polishing a blackened old kettle restoring it to a splendor


that would beckon the good gods to shine


upon the effort


worthy of aquiring further aligned treasures




to day i walked a long way


and recovered a car i had left behind




i can't wait to get back to working



stepping on and off the chime

[runningstream]

i'm not sure what to do every body has their fetters

whats the relevance from moment to moment

some have structure that extends into their future horizons

some chase whats behind


after building and owning a few things

i felt gravity


now gathering threads of time past

into now


to place them in the future


i must sell some of them things


some were left accounts due to others time spent

passed on


some this will come later in life


the threads of time


passing upon the threads of money appealing time


the solid threads of spirit


aquired past live memory

so follow lines


they pass upon each other


the dreamer and the old lines

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i am watching the fringe dwellers

i walk among them

i am watching the channels they watch

interference on clear sets

trying to understand what has been put in the water

dream lines i feel like helping them

then i also think

no just watch them

in my mind i find solutions for them

like supplying shoes for the shoe less

but really its a curiosity  i can hardly scratch

here i am dwelling on the fringe

in my comfort

i have been afforded spoils for work and good timing

and here i watch the mistakes that give circumstance

or not mistakes but choices



actually it seems like different dreams in time

like each one is its own time


or choosing of its own time and timing


trees that come of age and go through processes


i find myself

wanting just a small space to be left alone

so that i may gather my own threads and not be pulled out

into the drawing out


light resides within each of them that they must find

to gather well the growth


many dreams here reaching for their own lights


the moon was quite full for a few days


perhaps that dream plays on the light


i can see how the dream becomes communal



i notice many of the people on the fringe due to illnesses in health


i can see my situation too


and what will pull me through


faith actually


great faith


what is faith ?


pulling the threads of light of the indescribable

into form


through a well delivered focus of growth


i will keep growing


and listen to the wind


and not allow it to bother me from my footholds on the shifting sands

of the metronomes of timing



different choruses echo out


i can't just follow any one


but this ones

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not only this

i feel who hears what

and how is it assimilated


for instance i could talk somebodies ears off about a certain phase of something

only to have an empty stare shown to what i have said

or interest and no comprehension or cohesion


the old one about lead a horse to water and still you can't make it drink


or the one about give a man a fish and he eats for a day

teach a man to fish and he eats for a lifetime


and who wants to learn


maybe there should be one about that


is the sky closing in sometimes i wonder


some of these fringe dwellers move so fast i can feel them


and they come forward emptying it all out in front of them


to which i wan't to pass by and avoid what i know i cannot do for them


it is not that in passing this cant occur


it is in standing still


you can process so much for somebody


but if they cannot make the connections themselves then it seems endless


they pass moods


i feel the moods from people


for instance i may feel completely content

only to in their presence feel i should be doing something or running away


its strange what they are passing around

words like strange even as i pass it sounds to have overuse


water is healing that is what i feel


the use of water for movement


knowledge as well they seem to be linked


leading horses to water where they may swim like a fish

[Nichi]

to which i wan't to pass by and avoid what i know i cannot do for them


it is not that in passing this cant occur


it is in standing still


you can process so much for somebody


but if they cannot make the connections themselves then it seems endless

I do know how you feel here. I worked for psych hospitals' intake for many years, including the crisis lines, and sometimes, recognition of a problem is all that is possible. The person him/herself has to do all the work, no matter what. You can throw a lifeline or a bone, or point in the right direction, and on the personal, you can be a support if you choose, but the person him/herself still has to do all the work. I think the same is true with matters of awareness and spirit... the person still has to do all the work.

[runningstream]

i am no expert on mental health except my own

and it is good to ask for help or to have somebody who is on the level to talk to

when the crazies start to drive you crazy  in your world pressing in

or just the world pressing in

one of the best things ever



for one thing

i know

things will always be changing

its important to always give the impression that "you've got this "

or that you know exactly what you are doing and where you are headed

no matter if you have no idea

then be open and ready



it might seem like a lie "which it is not "

but its the connection and availability needed

to take advantage of our connection to the genius universe that is available to us

as threads to travel upon


my leg might be sore today

so i gather the availability of cherishing

what i can do


which would other wise be left not done

because being able bodied

i might not have had the chance to get them done


also different ways of approaching things

new ways


really affirming "i've got this "


or affirming and believing

i

 am always lucky

even when it seems the path diverges elsewhere




i have a friend who has a son


he is in security and when he tells a story he always come out on top in the story

even if he got smacked in the head and lost

when he tells the story it has some redeeming twist

where he is victorious



his son has taken on the trait too

he plays football and is around ten years old



he thinks he is always winning even when he is getting a pummeling


its quite hilarious



sort of like that


except i prefer to jump over walls or walk around them


rather than smashing "my way" through them


luck then


something in the pocket

[Nichi]

he is in security and when he tells a story he always come out on top in the story

even if he got smacked in the head and lost

when he tells the story it has some redeeming twist

where he is victorious



his son has taken on the trait too

he plays football and is around ten years old



he thinks he is always winning even when he is getting a pummeling

That's the key to surviving for sure.

[runningstream]

Sushi my beautiful friend the bullmastif cross

was dead in the garden two days ago first thing in the morning

she had a wonderful day and was driving around with me

she had broken her collar earlier in the morning she had so much vitality


i was having a really i love sushi day

had sent photo of her to my brother i took the day before


and was texting about her antics too


i don't understand what happened to her


she was such a beautiful friend an absolute sweetheart


i rarely if ever had a bad word to say about her


she had just a small amount of blood in her mouth as she lay in the garden


and had vomited after eating dinner which i found normal as dogs go


i miss her a lot and did not see that coming at all


its strange to just lose somebody when you have no idea why


whether it was a snake or she had some thing go wrong inside her body from running around

having a big day


i will never know probably


life will be different now


my woman says



its strange that somebody dies and the world just goes on anyway as normal


and it is

for a while lots of things remind me of her and i feel sad about it

i really really loved sushi my friend a lot


she is now helping to grow a citrus tree in a new garden

[Nichi]

I'm so sorry, Simon.

[Michael]

Sounds like poison. Rat poison takes some time to work on dogs, so more likely someone slipped her a bait. It happens more often than we would like to think.

Whatever, the death of a dear friend is a sad moment. You know, I still meet my old dog Wally in my dreams, and we have good fun.

[runningstream]

 thankyou


and

we had our first dream the next night

she was just moving still a small amount like she would be ok maybe some hope


i wondered about poison too


she was guarding the place a lot and i wondered if somebody took offence


i understand the feeling of not having closure now i even rang the vet to ask

they said it was like finding a needle in a hay stack without an autopsy


she suggested it sounded maybe like a snake but it was only a guess among others

[Jahn]

My deepest sympathy to you and your family.

Yes, the dogs, they return in our dreams. I got two German shepherds that have melted into one and they share my dreamworld some time most every week.