Topic: Story sake

[runningstream]

yes pieces over days


reminds me of something playing out over aeons

actually


the story goes like this


its actually predictive in its approach towards itself

in time



two polar ends of a universe gaiting along side a parallel streaming universe



spinning discs lets call them brother s

for argument sake



first we would have to understand fire

its effect upon/within water


and its predictive reflective properties contained 'within'

the parallel universes stream



then a point leading ontowards significant 'time'



within its journey of polar balance



having set up its streaming disc within 'time'



it seeks to realign polarity closely through union


yet through the illusion of separation creates

identity of power through orgasmic ; capture and release



when the discs pass upon each others spiral



the malee is revealed


it could neither be said one had related to the other


nor the other to the one


without the other having conceived it through mutual pressuring



what i mean to say is this



if a point exists upon 'fire'


within 'water'


spiraling structure would have it meet

and greet



that point would exist in 'time'


as a birth stood upon a scale




nothing could be said for the memory within fire \



as fire is not the same as water


in that its 'point'  awareness spiral    not     reflection   


neither is one fixed



one is responsible for the other only is so much as the advancement



upon it within   'time'



and time itself has originated closely yet not of itself as expansion or density




actually the real answer i got for the subject was this




 what word sounds the same if you remove the

first letter


the middle letter


or the last letter




the word was




EMPTY






next was something about the eagle radiating emanations

as awareness within certain predictive alignments



and the nest was something about eagles laying turds as


was suggested



either way its an argument of predictive proportions



the set up the trap the fall the rise etc etc



that the ones seeking for warned to accost the oncoming fire


were ill prepared and asked the wrong questions of father time

and so came upon the same conclusions in the face of the same malee



had they not as previously pre pared them selves


according to the saparation "literal"



then the oncoming unification would have both answered the call


and having not pre determined their own fate provided provision


for the required growth and stabilisation ' open way . not closed '


"UNION"



you cant stop the fire when it passes that way



its a misunderstanding with disasterous consequences



the other thing that came from it




was "beings"


which were like "eyes without a face"


these were black faces to my mind

with black almond eyes



also like silvio manuel as the master of "intent"


the eyes in the darkn ess


as i saw it just similarly



the larger emanations outside had configurations beyond the scale of the

dualistic imagination surely anyway



therefore the intent of the eyes without a face would



not have to answer to such mathematical equasions





just some things

[runningstream]

i spoke on the phone to Sophia yesterday


i told her two sun birds had come looking gently in the shed for somewhere to


nest and stayed floating there for a while checking things out


and she told me the same thing had happened to her that day also


a pair of sunbirds had come to her front door looking for a place to hang up a

nest also




right now there is a Curlew outside


that is curious also as that is a first here



it just let me know as i was posting this



i think the aboriginals believe they were some ancestor spirits



also it reminds me of my friends daughter who used to be afraid of them


she always said they had backwards knees and that was why

[runningstream]

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sequoiadendron_giganteum

[runningstream]

It looks like we sorted it out this time

the tensions and the reliefs are not so much the problem in the

face of the solutions

hard as they may be

one dove remains

another one will be brought in to replace the other as it has not yet returned


i will be leaving

she "Sophia" will be staying


we will wait for each other five years and visit

in our passing and still stay together for this time


i cannot stay and she cannot leave


that tension brought a lot of friction upon inclinations



so i will leave yet well stay together and in five years

pick it up "together" she will be able to leave

and we'll go together then



strangely that has alleviated the stress

it no longer feels i have to chose and the same for her

[runningstream]

i have mowed the grass

i paid some body last

to alleviate hay fever

the magpies are almost tame

they bring their babies

the kookaburras sit on the tv aerial too

at least its finding a use


passion fruit vines are choking the fence

what a wonderful thing


the dragon fruit cactus'  are better when treated rough

tie them with stockings says the man to a stump

and so i did

started drinking smoothies again


went fishing this morning and caught a good feeling thats about it


then a call somebody has caught two brim


call around grab them on the way through


got that feeling on the rocks again


it goes away and i forget


but there it was again


fresh as it always was


salt air


whispering freedom


that the earth my friend


my sore feet just want to give it a big hug


the colors came bright again


not like that cloudy grey dream



pebbles finding old fishing lines

cutting them free those little crabs



gypsy folk and all that

[Nichi]

So you're going to leave this place with the doves, magpies, kookaburras, palm cockatoos, and passion fruit? It sounds so much like paradise. 

[runningstream]

i am going to try another angle

yes think i will leave all that

i have worked very hard in that place

i don't mind having worked and making it nice for somebody else

i have done this before

i always knew this place would be busy and no rest "hard work"

now that the hard works investment might buy something new

who knows  perhaps i could get the hang of making even greater money

to proceed with further

although i have always been absolutely practical generally speaking

i would probably buy just more practicality

the burden of "having" is beginning to grind

so the transfer of energy into a new form is something

to be interested in seeing change

[Michael]

You're not being very clear runningstream - is this because you haven't committed to whatever course of action you are contemplating?

Are you suggesting you broke up with your girlfriend, and she left. Then she came back and you decided to either give or sell your land and home to her while you leave. You are coming across as bananas. I suggest if you want to tell us about this, you be clear what you are talking about, because at present it sounds like you are describing some fantasy.

[runningstream]

every thing you are saying i see also and it makes sense


i will add something


a while ago i realized truths could be viewed from differing steps away

for instance a truth can be witnessed in close proximity

within the world

in the seemingly mundane


and framed within a farther away context within the universe

the same truths could be witnessed


whats woven through as bananas for me

for you


is just as simple as the rest


it sounds like fantasy because it is


yet that does not make it any less real or manifest



i am not interest in the concrete versus the abstract


nor am i so much interested in their separation



although i would consider it for somebody elses sake




whats " written " in the water as my life


is both fantasy

and truth



also far away and close



that is this point




i am playing with it as i said i would




the details are running along with each other



i just am adding them together as they are




i am back with sophia yes



i leave yes



she stays yes




we do not live together


for now


although stay together




it is not my commitment to action which is lacking


it is my commitment to spirit which is making the decisions




if it sounds out there and fantasy i understand



if you ask me i will explain how so or even why



you would have to ask though


if you wait for me to supply those details its fine



its artistic license



for my self i wont change it


i can for you if you like i don t mind

[runningstream]

the place where i have been working at home is on land

i do not own


i will be leaving and meet the call of my own heart


i have accumulated through work five cars which i will sell



i have learned to spray paint


i have learnt to replace head gaskets


fit engines


weld etc etc as a course of the way things turned out




these assets will buy some thing else when sold



also i go to work



i also have a place full of things i will sell



i have had it all a heap of times yet i just get rid of it all again and start over


after dong work on the place i stay also i have asked to be paid for the work


as the rent could now be doubled due to the renovations i feel its a fair deal also



so this adgistment will also help


i have a caravan and i will be leaving in it




as far as the relationship with sophia is going a lot of tension was caused


because of me wishing to be gone "from this red neck place "   and what that "vibe"



entails




having left to serenity yet encountering all sorts of trivial personalities entering

"finding in roads"


to the place and adding to that the unhealthy balance and hard work due to the

circumstances

leaves me with what i already knew




i have come here to work hard


i have now assets for the next leg of the journey



every thing is set in motion and the wheels are now turning "the tide"




what ever will be will be



ill just catch the tide now same as always

[Michael]

When people speak of why their partner is dissatisfied with the relationship, they usually speak of what they believe is their partner's problem, not what their partner actually says.

If I ask you why Sophia is upset with the relationship, assuming you want to respond, and you are under no obligation to respond, would you be able to relay what she says, rather than what you believe she is really saying?

[runningstream]

if she was upset with the relationship i could give you that yet she is not

right now so i can not give you that


i would give you introspection and the words she spoke if i felt it was required


i could do that easily


however as long as i felt i needed help

with it

and i do not right now


i am leaving and even this is not a problem


so her words are she will stay with me ,and wait for the five years

and then well go together


the reason is one of financial investment and the kids


and i understand its a big deal just digging up those roots for her


if we dug we could think of past things

i don t think it matters now though

[runningstream]

Well i have some news now .

We had a fight and broke up . actually i don;t know if thats true because i don't feel

i was fighting so much . although i was stern and did not submit .



It started with me saying , "you are indirectly manipulative sometimes ".

i am refering to having to the dualistic approach to energy and struggle.

i really tried hard to keep that clear.

it was met with much fight .

apparently those were some key words . Biting down hard upon them

She kept asking what do you mean , each time i tried again and again

even saying things like do you know the polarities and about power struggles etc

and that we can speak openly about issues , and introspection

without it having to be attacking somebody

from with in the middle .


this and also i told her you have zero introspection , and that i am not having a go

at you when i speak about something that is happening , that we could speak

without it having to be good / bad , wrong ./right , black / white


the more i explain the more i meet hostility



later being told i am dark inside and just look good on the outside because of what

i said ,


i am hurt , i might be confused ,


yet i resign to just leave it .


we spoke after on the phone the next day .


after some time she says whats something wrong ?


i said yes , i give up , i give up there is no point talking to you about it any more .



you tell me i am black inside

and

/she even spoke of hitting me over the head with something , a candle holder on

the drawers . '


i am left completely dumfounded . i cannot believe we were even having the same

conversation .


after we hang up . its over  .


next i get the text about asshole this .

i text back , ok you have hurt me thats enough now leave me alone .



she replies , something about what she thinks also , back .


so its done , i felt like it can go no further , and the more it plays out the less

anything becomes over come or done about anything .

that was three days ago now .



i have given up on it .

[runningstream]

yesterday after this , whilst going to pick one of my cars up

from her house , i was over taken on the inside of my truck whilst turning right

by a motor cycle on a tight corner which i was already cutting .


i pulled up at the next set of lights , and told him "yelling" through the window ,

you are a flowering cock head .


there were two of them .


next the other one begins to do a mono beside my truck continually on one wheel

on his motor bike ,


so in reply i give a semi swerve towards him with the truck to jolt him .  a half bork

type swerve . mimic.



next the two pull over on the side of the road ahead as though waiting for me .



so i come across the lanes and pull in behind them off the road .

i want to bang their heads together .



on second thought they change their minds as i arrive and ride away .




next my friend / land lord comes around today , to organise what we spoke of .;


me leaving and him renting this place out further .




he tells me about these two guys on motor cycles today he came across in the

same


spot racing each other through traffic and carrying on . 


could it be ?

[runningstream]

last night i put one of the cars back together . it should pass the road worthy

inspection now .

the rust is cut out , and painted last night , that appeared from sitting too long.


also the muffler repairs.



two others are also ready although one requires a windscreen still .


the other is ready too , and another parts  .



now comes feelings of is this the right thing to do ?



there is new fruit appearing one three different trees/ plants today.


it is that things are fruiting now  .

i even contemplate to just pay the rent and go yet keep a home base here.



my friend would prefer i stay even though he could get more money .


he made a special trip over even with his broken wrist and ribs.



perhaps i have reached a point where i might actually be able to relax ?



could it be , and also


a lot of outside tension was coming from having Sophia around .



i cannot see the light ahead so clear , as i felt it might be for ever ,


now i have an uncertainty as the road is changing ahead of me .



there are other tensions also .


the economy here is in panic mode and for a good reason .


work is drying up for many , and each day more and more things returh from job sites


and people layed off.