if somebody points and i feel its a good direction
I might apply myself for a time
That is fine my friend, and you can use that approach. The gods have patience, even if the bird doesn't.
But I can at least tell you it doesn't work that way. The Path is not a choice.
i will not be following structured rigid and square lines
That i see some places
They seem to take prisoners
Perhaps I can offer you at least this - consider every other member of this forum. Do you think they are free? No, they are all prisoners of the bird.