wow i just got done rereading this whole thread. the challenge to retain awareness after death. a lot of hope on this thread that we can. ultimately we wont know if successful if hit the door, but over time ive realised little me probably wont retain awareness as much, as my double will. ive kind of got the gist of this in my encounters with the double. if he were a computer, i am downloading knowledge, trying to convert all that to wisdom, and other things to see if can slip past the eagle. ive come to grips this would be the way - the higher goes, the little and lower, aint going. what that will make of me, will be very different.