Topic: Story sake

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day in day out

day to day

daze

day time

night time

time and time again



timing


wind




was paddling in the most stunning stream

fresh clear water


i lifted it up to my tongue to taste


as my first fresh water paddle it was the most amazing thing


i must have seen hundreds of fish below me in schools


around old fallen  trees

and the grasses beneath


sometimes deep and dark pools


forest surrounds

the extremely soft rooted up soil reddish along the banks


wild pigs have done

venturing further


i know the estuarine crocodiles inhabit the waters every where


and i know they say it will be safe


i will find a different launch into different water holes


the complacency of locals is just that


time to find new water holes

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it really is too risky



http://saltwatercrocodiles.homestead.com/crocodileattacks.html


perhaps a nice lake

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there was a lyric in a song once said the liars are acting strong


i can relate to that today


the wind feels all wrong




the truth comes across smoothly and follows away


the lie stays spinning stuck and overcompensating for the loss of balance

out of control



i was given a spear gun i must bye a rubber for

i never did that before


the guy took it off somebody who pointed it his way


so that is how it came my way


perhaps i might never shoot a fish


seems a handy item to have i think


my friend rings me today

she has a lot to say


she says a song for all those hurt

by lovers past

a song of forgiveness so they may love again


i tell her it seems what is needed in the world


she feels things so deeply and change


i tell her its ok


to change she is a woman after all



she wan'ts to be taken care of


somebody to provide a security to direction




she speak s of things

like the truth and the tugs of people upon niggling things


like little digs and negative comments that give directions

and helps to clear the way




now when i listen i hear it around more prominent than i had this morn



i am moving too


i painted a few doors and begin on a kitchen to keep the scales balance


when its done i am too



the dogs bark relentlessly and restlessly and stop for a moment



i feel the unsettling in my chest



i feel it in the world today




intelligent people still exist


i found a friend i had not met


and Simon is my name i say


i knew her before we met by her eyes something there



perhaps i will never see her again


she said i will see her tomorrow


yet i will maybe not return her way i would say

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Perhaps I will have Internet soon

I have two new 20 litre water containers

And a five

Transition phase

Is everything phases these ways


I like to help others

Like seeing in a way

Give them what they can't do for themselves

Yet not knowing if it's the right thing for them

Feeling a touch that suggests a good idea

And passing it along


When they are stuck spinning


And it opens up


Seems like getting people work is easy

Pointing ways that open up


When people lend energy


I suppose it is that energy is blocked


And it's a kind of expansion



Beyond close contact limits that's all

And then cohesion is ability

Yet not to stick

To
contact something else


Again just a bunch of
Words


I say it's one thing to see a problem


It's that also you must be able to see your way out


Not to see something thats not there

But to follow something that's not there

As though it's coming


Because of a feeling


That sort
Of thing



Passing that to people


If only for a
Moment they see it

They might grasp it too tight


Intent a funny itch

To beings used to first itches not stopped to see

What staring in the face


Belief


Believing in magic


To not forget this magic



Doing it out there

Bringing representations of words in here



Wind talking song


A nice name

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it's not what you do it's what you don't do

It's what you do not what you don't do


I have no idea what right brain means

Left brain means



I watched the Chinese stock market

I watched appearances on different fronts


I watched refugees

I watch number rise


Numbers rising yet not on a stable base


Influxes


out fluxes



I dream a lot today and last night


I suppose just seeing things in different ways

One moment another


There I dream here I dream


I feel the right. Rain was in the sky passing above on the horizon


The men on the tv don't fight with swords but cook to compete


A pink shirt was it a symbol


Or a non oversight of my own


I train hard and feel well now


left to right and expanding out


Relevance

I feel balance relevant

from dark ages to
Light


what happens with balance and the wind When expansion in play


Fast reaction times



I went on a little about it


I watched a wonderful television show about some people from

England moved to the nord with husky dogs

Water from frozen streams


Speaking of freedom away

And fullfilled dreams without electricity


They ate fish and reindeer

Then I wonder was it personal preference


When asked where would you be happy on fifteen more years

The answer came right here


The interviewer notes


They seem to have some inner core of resilience

Noting he does not have " it"


And would you like water from the tap ?

Comes
The reply


No it is refreshing to go for a walk and get it from hole

In frozen stream


I like these small transitions too

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i see the same thing

caught between materialism and leaving to the freedom of nature


i don't know if it is the moon


one side is pulling


if i had said

flower white people and their materialism


the answer comes back

flower black people and their living off the system which the white mans system provides



although no mention is made of the other side


it is automatically assumed the divide and rise to action comes from it

vehemently



what it means to say stepping back in no race


how can i leave for one side of the fence and nature



when the system does not want to allow it



and when i come back to the system it wants to keep weakness and dependency



what does it mean to keep ideals alive and ideas alive for another



it means how can i actively find balance in myself



the two sides smashing against each other this moon



"racial interlude "


illustration




pain lying beneath i see it



hurt



they lay in their cells


they are bound by pain


to act out


speaking to their pain


to not hurt any one else by showing pain to perpetrator


oblivious of acting from pain


steps back

from anger



who is standing back from it



step in it to see its opposite



i am interested to see


how much of money is the root of all evil is a true saying



i am sure it can't be cut so clean



when pushed i see how the push in the fabric comes back

and realize how much so the action



it is felt when it does not push back again from outside the divide in the fabric



an honesty to the giver


feeding back in

to the pain all by itself


without the receiver feeding back in to the opposite


loneliness for who is standing between the opposites



i feel alone



not that a foot would be placed in the wrong place


but by inabilities to recover the standing outside the emotion

that provides opposite




the moon is it this moon

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have walked into the trees space today

where many lives have been lost

dense packed energy

beauty clearest stream i ever saw

the story of the aboriginals how she led them to their death

the young men at her loss

of not having what she could not have had

i did not fully understand it

i turned promptly and walked out from the brush

realizing how quickly the thick energy would consume into dream

a woman says i am to help her and hands me a note

i joke what is it a love letter ?

she says i make her feel safe

asks me to heal her and i ask what do you mean

she says in her body

i tell her to go into the earth and she thinks and tells me i am mean

i explain yet its not what is wanted to be heard

so i tell her something

she wants to come with me

i tell her she cannot

yet make a movement for it

i will disappear into the fog by feeling

heart speaks up

and puts "it out there"

so the dream speaks back in the fog

on the water

i stop the wind

that is all

and the song beneath is singing gently with the wind

 

floating by

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was sitting in a hut area with a barbecue

charging the computer had just day dreamed of some sausages in bread with sauce

for a  moment when she arrived

says she is from the fresh water church and see her light

tells me of something lifted off her like a cure

i agree

takes me some time to see the funny side

she does offer me a sausage and hands me three instead

funny awake dream

been tired too so much so a little concerned

trying to shake it loose


i can also see the light strongly again last night and few days its come back really really well


and there is an innocence and joy like comes with it

like getting into every thing with enthusiasm

with having that energy even  around


it'll come through


it wants to come through


and i'll come through too


i paddled so long my shoulders and arms sore

skin burnt


the wind made the paddle more challenging


then i trained well



picked up some wild cherry tomatoes for the seeds


will drive around a bit now


no more tv


no more sugar in coffee



volition out the front door beckoning contact



the wind on my skin



sometimes i do just write for the sake of the story


its unwinding and winding

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brings thee point of relevant "awareness"
perceptual filters
tensions released
magnetic polarities
essence of time
position of awareness relevant to time
position of awareness relevant to position of being
position of relevance to position of relevant time
presence
bringing forth awareness into oncoming time

cusps

spinning donuts in space

spiraling cascades reaching beyond outer limits of accumulated relevance
of awareness

siding with polarities opposites "selves"



i don't go around talking about this really most of the time


i am not sure it recedes when fascinated upon
i was fascinated by that

perhaps on approach

truth approaches with joyous curiosity that is the awareness of the beings core


every essence perceived treated with truth means

the core perceives its true standing when intent is placed wholy and steadfastly 



Michael applies the whole awareness well and gives back the details in expanded and yet coherent scope

drawing them back to relevance both awareness and sight of awareness



the many horned beast in other cases may draw to emotions as sight

and distribute accordingly elsewhere


i do not feel shame

i do not feel remorse

i feel something like sadness when revisting old images feelings


i do not feel jealousy

i have been pushed into hate



from all these also ability to come to an honest resolution



people fight their battles on different fronts


some think in their mind


some on the field of battle


come are perpendicular to the cause


some feel that what they already know can be used to take into a battle of knowledge



some feel superior


some feeling pushed out yet what remained causes the effect still




my battle was action

wholly try to feel what is right always


no matter how much of these i saw



no matter how much their battles they think to have won



not even standing on the same field



strategy is just honesty




honesty can go a long way



awareness in an expanded form coming back towards action




i consider strongly the proposition of secrecy


perhaps it was understood



my question is always the same



who really had awareness ? and was it the same for all all being said as is there



and why if the discussion is not had and all revert back to points of perception known

even the unknown




what resides of what was and what then becomes from where one has been




i really am not certain the gods of the indians and asia can properly relegate all to be known

within relevant time based on expansive models surely  the human element also

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i do not care what others think of what i think too much at all

it would be a mistake to run with that ball

only learning


and i side with a kind of directness and will purposefully not digest sleights

which direct glancing blows



it pretty obvious which cue directness


which is complimentary

i always find it curious when others misrepresent another and run with the ball




i imagine fame would be horrible




i will give you an example of truth


perhaps somebody looks at you at an intimidating glance "supposedly"


the reaction to be taken bodily may be withdrawl


yet another face is taken


it is honesty


awareness means to not close off


"for example purposes" also speech , natrural motion etc ........


if this truth is followed long enough expansion occurs




expansion of entire being





i don't know it just always seems to want to expand out and then contract back



in the circumstances i speak of the human element comes into play



the bindings of two or more beings at play causes possibilities on "greater " levels of awareness "being " ;entire



so in the case of awareness


direction of travel of being becomes paramount

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actually the coffee i have is leaving a strange taste

oh well

i find natural obstacles in my way and use them to exercise upon

i find deep sadness and inspiration from the soldiers who fought.fight in afghanistan and it helps my inward


i paddled twice building greater distance and trained too


mindful of these actions


war is a horrible time


i dreamed that russian armies were coming over the hill or some such thing

to hope only a dream


i have no television and little contact outside


there is more food here than you could poke a stick at

i will gather some paw paw seeds


if you understood what it means to really know who you are

and what you came for it would no doubt help


landmarks are placed as signs


following them


throwing myself into physical activity as activity whilst being aware

of many points in time


truth can connect them all and beyond ?



every gesture of the wind can be moved to and with


i wonder about Karmic accumulation this way


as familiar visitors arrive



selling the world would mean walking from that path



and that would mean selling the self yet everything seems to connect





i won't do that proposition



the wind was something else today




i went one way to see what it was like against it and then came back in it




the next time i paddled with it then back against it



it was easier almost by facing it


when facing it i remained on course   although being in its face


when facing away direction was all over the place

i still made good ground upon the water when in its face



this taught me to appreciate and feel the water more


i loved its liquid feeling riding upon it


i notice the left and right paddles are out of alignment

for what i had though natural hand placement

yet it seems not so much so as to be not caught in the wind with a small surface area

 as one is out at the time of the other in




next i will say what i heard a swimmer speak of recently about the water speaking




the feeling connection of the gesture of movement

within the water back to the receiver at the other end of the paddle



then i remember about working with nature and not against as many would do


powerful strokes are tiring and listening and responding takes

getting out of the way and becoming the elements respondent 

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the military helicopters did come across the hilltop as it turns out this afternoon late

two of them

i had a look at the current news on Russia

seems they are saying the U.S has warned them for arming Assad Syria

then the media first take and then reverts to a some truth some sensationalism many times

and yet

all this posturing and global spiraling surely has its direction plotted to some extent

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took a while to get up stiff as a board from exercise

went for a long paddle into the wind at one point i must have been paddling for a few  minutes

only to look across at the same clump of grass on the side and i had moved perhaps only one foot in that time

so i headed back with the wind

it does interesting things to equilibrium

almost doubled my walking distance figure that's the way to go an overload and see how it goes

spoke to a family member left me wanting to change my phone number

not their fault just the attachments leave me feeling like being alone more

walking n and out of the front doors of each other lifes

was thinking about how nice it would be to get a yabbie net when a string appeared

what do you know

we are going to put something special in the water soon

there was a lot of old silt on the net i will bait it tomorrow and hope for a feed of red claw

got the paw paws for the seed

hope you should know

friend says the energies making people tired

i will no doubt be stiff as a board in the morning again

and sleep for a time

at least when i am awake i feel the benefits and vigor from the endorphins


even the sun on the skin

all matter of remedies required

even breath

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today i am hiding from the wind

i put up walls and get away from it

its outside my front door

when i woke it wanted to whisper in my ear and to my skin relentlessly


i dreamed my ass off

this morning


its almost cold

not sure how the paddling will go

tremendously we shall see


a mudlark looks around the corner when i write and skittles away

got him by surprise



ok ok time to check the net plus one more new one if i can make it so far



the army came today i believe a strange sight

two large tinnies side by side i could not make out what it was



all wearing the ubiquitous army green



must be operations in the air and on the water



i walk maybe 3 kilometers yesterday

paddle a couple and train weights



still the inspiration of soldiers who fought



the creed some thing like


we will do what others cannot do


etc ......



i must look pretty funny by the time i have walked three k's


dragging my ass around stiff as a board


having put a longer stretch in again yesterday


surprisingly after only three days my body is recovering well and does not feel any worse but better



actually my knee is the best it has felt yet

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