it is important to be honest about the issues
like the lights
perhaps i have more light than i require now
only one meter is extremely bright
perhaps it is placement of lights that is important
after being used to such high energy costs it takes my eyes a moment to adjust
to the possibility that these lights will be using so little power
and costing nothing to run by the sun
if i reach a place inside myself to ask these questions
where every thing is still and hold it can i maintain such determined focus
suspension
perhaps i hardly have a question to ask
perhaps it is the feeling inside that wants to question its appearance
or perhaps it met outside
and what came first the chicken or the egg
perhaps one egg became two miosis
then four six and where did odd numbers come from i guess those eggs did not divide
a person always says "don't try to re invent the wheel "
so i began to think about that
it sounds silly yet could probably be improved
i get so used to having people around
and then they are gone
even ants make good company
not as good as say dogs
every body is so grown up and i am still a child
yet i would not change it for anything
no i do not get lonely that much
i am too busy stacking eggs most of the time
i do miss the good parts of the people i miss
reality and nostalgia
dreams seem to be all about depth
depth content and the like
some dreams are dumb and almost robotic and weird because of how slow
some are overly complex yet lack smoothness and sense
there is another word where every thing must have depth make sense
appropriate speed
timing
making things full filling in feeling
where complexity meets timing
timing meets depth
suspension on those strings
that dream
yes